day, be over already!

I just want a huge bag of Jalapeno Potato Chips.

I hate being on the Pill.

when the cat's away...

Damn Skippy the mice will play! My boss is out of the office until 3pm. Woo hoo!

Byron made some fried rice last night. Yummy. Babe, if you're reading this...GOOD JOB!

I think it's funny that I love dogs even though I'm allergic to them. It's kind of ironic.

Hace mucho calor lately...too bad it's scheduled to rain this weekend.

POLL: If you and your husband's relative had the same first and middle name, would you take his last name? Would you trip about not being the only person in the family to have that name?

BWAHAHAHAHAHA

Toxic by Britney Spears

"It's getting late To give you up I took a sip From my devil cup Slowly It's taking over me " Ah, what's a year without breaking a few hearts? Literally.

What 2004 Hit Song Are You?

you don't make friends with salad

I bought an Italian blend of lettuce for salad. To my pleasant surprise, it tasted better with my Italian dressing. Go figure.

I wonder how long I can keep this weight loss stuff up. All I did this weekend was sit in an audience (CSUHEB Commencement & Rianna's dance recital) and eat afterwards (Buffet and Chili's).

I'm tired of my love/hate relationship with food. It's very stressful.

my favorite things

1. Coffee on a Friday Morning
2. Taryn & Royce
3. Hanging out in SB with my sisters
4. Family gatherings at Mountain House
5. Spider rolls and edamame
6. Laughing with my real sister and brother
7. Driving Lucky
8. Kisses and Hugs
9. Lying in bed on a Sunday morning with babe
10. Getting emails during work
11. The feeling I get after working out
12. Finding $5 in my jeans pocket
13. Pop music
14. My engagement ring
15. Clam Chowder and fried oysters from Splash
16. Reading other people's online journals
17. People commenting on my journal
18. Dancing
19. Singing
20. Living

Congrats to the grads! The real world sucks! You're gonna love it!

chaotic

Has anyone seen this show? Britney and Kevin are so white trash...it's not even funny. I was watching the whole time thinking are they for real? Britney's kind of a slut. The previews for next week are of their wedding...and guess who's TiVoing that shit.

Yup, I'm a sucker for celebrity reality shows or any reality show for that matter.

Oh Mother Nature

Last time I checked a calendar, I saw that it was June. What the hell...rain? Oh Mother Nature, why must you fuck with us so? Is it that time of month? Because if it is I totally understand...

I hate being left alone on a Tuesday night. I also don't like being yelled at (well, more of a "I'm worried about you" yell than a "Die bitch, die!" kind of yell) while half asleep. I'm not mad, I just don't have anything to say... That's on the real tho.

I gave in a bought some stuff online. Hopefully, I'll get it on Friday. We'll see though. I still do not know what to wear this Saturday. What the hell man, it's not like a formal event or anything...why am I being so indecisive? But I tried on some dresses that I haven't worn since the summer before my last year in college...and they fit! Woo hoo me!

Yogurt is delicious twice a day. Oatmeal ain't that bad either. According to my sister, "It makes you HELLA regular." Damn skippy!

Mountain House = 3 cars, 2 drivers
Union City = 3 cars, 5 drivers
My Lucky will be on loan to my sister while her car's in the shop. Sigh...I don't like automatic in traffic. I will miss you Lucky.

The crap I don't talk about on here anymore Enjoy!

Happy Hump Day everyone!

blast from the past

My lil sis emailed me today and put some pictures in it that brought a smile to my face:

This brought back A LOT of memories, half of which I'm not at liberty to speak of, but let's just say that what goes on in SB, stays in SB.

She also sent me a pic of my cute family:

I wish I was there for installs, but time and money didn't allow.

What's up with all this nostalgia man...it's been like 4 years since I graduated! But look at me now...living in my own home and engaged. I never thought it would be like this.

and...end scene.

I've been super moody over the past couple of days. I won't say that I don't know why because I do and Byron got the brunt end of it since he lives with me. Poor guy.

I've had much on my mind lately and don't really know how to sort it all out. I feel like I'm trying to please everyone else except for myself, which is never good, but only I gotta deal with it right? I've been slacking on my diet and hopefully I can get back on track this week.

Commencement this weekend...woohoo. It's always this time of year that reminds me that I'm an "adult" now.

busted

My oh-so-sweet fiance decided to wash and vaccum my car two days ago...and he found my pack of cigarettes in the center console. I know how he feels about that kind of stuff, so I felt really bad when he approached me about it. I don't know why I got back into the habit again...he kept asking me why and I'd simply say "I don't know."

So I got to thinking, it was a comfort for me back then...then I turned to food...and with all my weight-loss efforts, I've reverted back to my old comfort. It's really sad when I think about it. I don't know why I smoke, I don't know why I started in the first place, and I don't know why I'm not committed to quitting.

In other news, I did start a wedding xanga...if you'd like the link, let me know.

Have a super fantastic weekend everyone!

in my head

I recently was suckered into join BMG, which is cool because I get CDs that I've been meaning to get. I just never got around to getting them. The things you'd do for a free mini-IPod, which I don't even really think I'm going to get. Oh well.

Because I have this new collection of CDs, I know have music constantly playing in my head. Here's my "grab bag" of lyric snippets for today:

"I believe in the stars across the sky
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
You see, I've waited all my life
For this moment to arrive
And finally...I believe"

"She was a disco light on a Friday night
She moves across the floor
She's oh so tight like dynamite
Blowin' me up with her love."

"You know you did it...I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn"

I'm such a pop-tart.

welcome back

Four days off. Word.

I was surprised that Byron did not have the desire to go to Hayward's PCN. Truthfully, I never really enjoyed sitting through 3 hours of a show (even though I would be in one for 4 years) unless the story and the show itself was truly compelling. I have to say that I did enjoy the last 2 years I went, so I don't know if I'd be missing a whole lot. Byron said that he heard it sucked anyway. Maybe it did, maybe it didn't...I guess we'll never know.

Tricia finally made her way to Mountain House yesterday only to find out that she'll probably be moving to LA within the next couple of months. I guess it's just that time in our lives where the people you love move away and you just kinda have to deal with it. I'm really happy for her though...and her man is the funniest.

I tried some kind of Russian soup today. Borshke is what is called I think. It was delicious.

infidelity

I've been contemplating getting a xanga account so I can post comments on other people's xangas. Maybe I can make that into a wedding blog and this will be my main blog. I don't have much experience balancing two relationships like that so any advice is welcome.

You know that feeling you get when you reach into your pocket and find $5? I so feel like that right now. I'm on track for a 4-day weekend. I was going to come into work for a 1/2 day tomorrow because my boss had interviews scheduled in the morning, but then I looked at his calendar and no interviews scheduled! Woo Hoo! I hope my boss okays it...otherwise I won't be a happy camper come tomorrow.

Tae-Bo kicked my ass last night. I'm doing it tonight again for another beating.

beautiful

You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I find that I do much of my thinking in the car (I mean I do have a long commute) and I realized that there are some important people in my life that have major body issues. I was thinking about how I've been dieting and exercising in order to feel better about myself. I don't know if I'll ever get down to a size 2, but hey, there's no harm in trying right?

I heard on the radio the other day that Paris Hilton is not happy with her body. Then it got me thinking...is anyone really? My body issues stem from my mother and grandmother. They would always tell me that I was fat and needed to lose weight. I didn't have the metabolism that my sister had and was just a thicker person. The only time that my mom and grandma thought I looked good was senior year of high school when I was still in guard and dancing for 2-3 hours a day.

I proud of myself because I've lost 15 pounds over the past 3 months and have kept it off. I have 5 months until the wedding and have been pretty good about watching what I eat and exercising. It's an uphill battle, but totally worth it in the end. I'm healthier and have more energy.

traffic

Super slow morning here at work. I suppose I could do some wedding stuff...

Isn't it weird how morning traffic can make or break your day? My commute in the morning is about an hour and 30 minutes...today was no picnic on 580. It's cool that we have a good size house, but damn that traffic can be a bitch in the morning.

I need to get motivated to work out again.

revelations

I had my make-up trial yesterday...loved it. MAC make-up is the shit. My girl Christy was with me and with her it's always good times. IHOP always better in good company.

I noticed that my posts are current in the sense that I write about what's affected me at the moment. No real insight regarding past relationships, only memories of the past (UCSB). Maybe I should be more vague about what I write. Maybe I should talk about my exes or somehow bring them up and then use them as an excuse. Maybe I should judge more and call people out. Maybe I should preach more and walk around like my shit don't stink. Maybe I'll get all riled up about people talking about me behind my back and complaining that it's unfair because I can't defend myself...then turn around and talk shit about my ex...knowing damn well that he don't have the chance to defend himself either.

It's none of my business...but what the hell, I'm nosy as fuck.

socially awkward

How to make certain situations socially awkward

Happy Friday Everyone!

peer pressure

Okay Cheryll, no more wedding talk...for now =P

Total volume of music files on my computer
I'm gonna go ahead and say 0MB as our computer crashed about 2 weeks ago. I'm sure that there were many music files there, however someone had connected the speakers incorrectly and we didn't figure that out until about 2 months ago. Sad.

The last CD I bought
That's a tough one. I think it's "Now That's What I Call Music, Volume 17." The last CD I "recieved" was Gavin DeGraw's "Chariot." You wanna talk about who fell off the Hip-Hop Wagon...I'm your gal.

Song playing right now
...in reality? Nothing, it's silent.
...in my head? "Behind Those Hazel Eyes" by Kelly Clarkson

Five songs I listen to a lot, or mean a lot to me
Make Me Whole - Amel Larrieux
This song is just absolutely beautiful...brings tears to my eyes everytime.

Miss Fat Booty - Mos Def
I know I can't afford to stop...for one moment...

Soul Bossa Nova - Quincy Jones (aka the Austin Powers theme song)
I can see the opening dance sequence now...

The Light - Common Sense
Who doesn't love Common?

Do Your Thing - N*SYNC
I had to put one in here...you just gotta listen to the lyrics.

Pass the Baton to Five People
Regan I know you want too...
Miah so you can update already.
Ciciely just for fun.
Jeffy I know you're bored...
Lil Sis if you're out there!

I got bangs now! Woo hoo!

much ado about nothing

Guess what y'all...it's been 4 weeks since I asked for addresses and THE FREAKIN' LIST IS STILL INCOMPLETE! ARGH! It's so out of my control now...I've stated my feelings and if it gets across, it gets across. I'm through with that. On to more important things like my arts and crafts.

Like everyone else, I'm tainted by the past. I had a boyfriend who lied all the time and led me to trust no one. I had another boyfriend who would talk shit about my sisters and close girlfriends to me, but would be hella fake to their faces. Another boyfriend just fucked with my head for about a year or so. No wonder I'm such a bitch sometimes. Fix it damn it.

I'm like everyone else. Mom and Dad paid for me to go to college and bought me a car (which I later paid off). I live in a 5 bedroom, 3 bathroom house with my fiance. I workout everyday and watch what I eat because I'm not 5'3" and a size 2. I put on pant leg on one leg at a time and take poops on a daily basis. Since I'm so typical...I'm not allowed to have any type of opinion because there is always someone else that has it harder than me. You know what? I don't fucking care. I have what I have and I make do with it. I'm aware of my own personal issues and have addressed them several times with myself.

I need to stop with the coffee in the morning...for real though.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MIAH
...MY WHORE IN CRIME!
<3, your #1 hag