It is the last day of 2002.

New Year's Eve is usually a day of reflection, a day to think about the things that you've done and the things that you will (or at least try to) do, but most of all it's a day to celebrate. I have much to celebrate for this year. I've accomplished so much and look forward to the coming year.

Dawn's Recap of 2002:
-Moved back to the Bay after 4 long (but incredibly memorable) years in Santa Barbara
-Found a job that consequently became a stepping stone for my career
-Started singing again!
-Got to go to VEGAS!
-Learned that "EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON"
-Fell in love with the man I'm going to marry...

I hope everyone has a safe and fun New Year's Eve!

An excerpt from my hand-written journal...

"My apologies for being so nosy. In all honesty, I don't really care about what you two went through, but unfortunately...I'm still inclined to find out."

I don't know why I do this. Why I take the time out to feed my curiousity...I think that it's still a faint remnant of what I used to be. I remember saying that the jealousy is a wasted emotion because nothing posititve ever comes of it. I have learned to let my jealous tendencies go and made a conscious effort to think rationally.

But the rationality of all this? Absolutely nothing. I must either be really obessive about something I had absolutely no control over or I'm just bored out of my mind.

I hope it's the second one.

Driving to and from work always gets me thinking and lost in my thoughts. Although, not too lost because I would have surely caused some sort of major accident. But I digress...lately, I've been reliving my middle school days. I guess it all started when I was driving down Alvarado Niles to my "other" job teaching colorguard. I started thinking about my eighth grade year...taking UC transit to visit my boyfriend at the other middle school, leaving my brother and cousin at Keystone to hang out with this boyfriend, riding in my mom's car to go to practice at Logan for "Marching On"...and I just remember a simpler time.

It's crazy to look back on just how much you've grown as a person. I've been through so much in these 23 years and strangely enough...that's what makes me who I am today.

Crazy? Yup. Ain't no doubt about that.

On a totally unrelated note...

HAPPY 3rd BIRTHDAY TARYN! I love you baby girl!

indifference

I don't know why,
but there are so many things
I just don't know about you.
And the funny thing is...
I really don't care.

In all honesty,
it would take a lifetime...
Literally a lifetime...
to discover everything
and anything that I don't know already.

What is it going to change anyway?
Will it make it all so exciting?
Or so incredibly dull?
Why would I run that risk
especially since I hate gambling in the first place?

What tomorrow brings...
I'll just have to wait until then to find out.

What yesterday has left...
I'll just have to deal with it and move on.

And today...
I'll just be right here...
Next to you...
Just like it's supposed to be.