Tuesday, February 21, 2006

empathy

I hate it when people say, "I'm sorry you feel that way." 9 times out of 10, one is never sorry for the way another person feels, they just say that shit just to make it sound like they're concerned in some way. I don't buy that.

"I don't appreciate the fact that you belittle me in such a way."
"I'm sorry you feel that way."

Sunday, February 12, 2006

greener pastures

I'm envious. Scratch that...I'm raging with jealousy right now. I don't know if it's because I've become more observant, but it seems as though everyone around me is either pregnant or has given birth within the last 6 months. What the fuck is up with that shit? So much for trying not to think about it...man. Who knew that this stuff would be so hard?

Monday, February 06, 2006

disconnected

I missed my homie's wedding this weekend because of a prior engagement (read: really expensive Warrior tickets for husband's Christmas/birthday present) and it got me thinking about how disconnected I am with my homies back in the UNE. I know that we all grow up eventually and go our different ways, but it's still hard to know that you made a lot of memories with these people and suddenly you find yourself surrounded by different people, people who you don't have much of a history with and who you never really feel completely comfortable around. Then you see your friends from you hometown and how their lives have changed (always for the good, thank God), but then you quickly realize that you play no integral part in it. It's almost like your watching a concert, you're a part of it in the sense that you are a spectator, but never really in the spotlight.

I know that it's just a simple fact of life that we all can't remain the same that we did, but if no one truly makes the effort is it a lost cause? Do I just cut my losses and move on? If that's the case, then I feel like it was all wasted and that I should have been more focused with the relationships that I know would stick. But I suppose you never know until life unfolds...

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

dear God

I'm lost. I need a sign. Anything will help.

-Dawn