driving
I used to be a claims adjuster and spend about 3+ hours in my vehicle everyday, so all in all, I think I'm a pretty good driver. Unfortunately, I work in a city where there are a plethora of old people and impatient rich people on the road. I use my horn way more than I ever had in my entire life driving. Yesterday, 2 people almost hit me coming out of driveways and 1 today.
Annoying. SO ANNOYING.
What's people's hurry anyway? Are you really in a hurry to get to work? I know I'm not. It's bad because I have that mentality of "I'll get there when I get there." I come in before my boss anyway, so is he really going to know if I'm late or not?
I don't think so.
POINT OF THE POST: Driving in Walnut Creek sucks ass. Big stanky cow ass.
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
psycho
I don't know what made me think of this, but I had an ex-boyfriend who was, for lack of a better word, psycho. I'm talking crazy here people. He was in a gang and a mama's boy (funny combination, if you ask me) so in addition to being very physically aggressive, his mom hated be by virtue of being with her favorite son. WTH, right? He would do strange things too...at the time I wouldn't think much of it, but now that I'm reflecting on it...he's fucking crazy yo. First he wanted me to keep the condom (ejaculate and all) in a ziploc bag in my room, kept all the condom wrappers in the middle console of his car and requested a used pad from me. I'm actually gagging as I type this. Who the fuck does this shit? Psychos! He would also verbally abuse me, forbid me from talking to any guys (family excluded), wearing shorts, cutting my hair, wearing make-up...what a fucking stupid ass teenager I was.
Looking back now, I have major trust issues that took me about 10 years to work out (he lied...ALL THE TIME), I couldn't trust a man as far as I could throw him, and used my sexuality as a form of acceptance and belonging. It makes me sick to my stomach to think about how long I endured that...in the name of love. I would sneak out at night, lie to my parents and lost my best friend because of him. Is this normal for a 14 year old? I could have really fucked up my life...
And it's times like this where I'm thankful that I was able to get myself out of that abusive relationship. Although he never hit me, he would push me into stuff or out of his car...it was more mental/emotional abuse than anything. I don't know why I'm writing about this now, but I felt like I had to put it out there...not just to put someone on blast, but because it's theraputic to me. There are just some things that you shouldn't keep in.
I don't know what made me think of this, but I had an ex-boyfriend who was, for lack of a better word, psycho. I'm talking crazy here people. He was in a gang and a mama's boy (funny combination, if you ask me) so in addition to being very physically aggressive, his mom hated be by virtue of being with her favorite son. WTH, right? He would do strange things too...at the time I wouldn't think much of it, but now that I'm reflecting on it...he's fucking crazy yo. First he wanted me to keep the condom (ejaculate and all) in a ziploc bag in my room, kept all the condom wrappers in the middle console of his car and requested a used pad from me. I'm actually gagging as I type this. Who the fuck does this shit? Psychos! He would also verbally abuse me, forbid me from talking to any guys (family excluded), wearing shorts, cutting my hair, wearing make-up...what a fucking stupid ass teenager I was.
Looking back now, I have major trust issues that took me about 10 years to work out (he lied...ALL THE TIME), I couldn't trust a man as far as I could throw him, and used my sexuality as a form of acceptance and belonging. It makes me sick to my stomach to think about how long I endured that...in the name of love. I would sneak out at night, lie to my parents and lost my best friend because of him. Is this normal for a 14 year old? I could have really fucked up my life...
And it's times like this where I'm thankful that I was able to get myself out of that abusive relationship. Although he never hit me, he would push me into stuff or out of his car...it was more mental/emotional abuse than anything. I don't know why I'm writing about this now, but I felt like I had to put it out there...not just to put someone on blast, but because it's theraputic to me. There are just some things that you shouldn't keep in.
Monday, August 01, 2005
goodbye weekend
Good weekend. Not like those marathon weekends where Byron and I have about 16 billion things planned every minute. Got to see family, friends and got a lot of wedding stuff done too!
Highlight:
Saw my uncle (dad's bro), aunt and 3 cousins from the Netherlands.
Lowlight:
My sister, Ben and the kids were in LA.
Highlight:
Free food at the Wyndham for our taste test.
Lowlight:
Mom and Dad were running late. Byron was upset because he didn't think that we wouldn't make it on time.
Highlight:
Won a free $5 Starbucks card at Yvette's baby shower.
Lowlight:
Yvette gave us the card because she felt bad for us, since we really didn't win any of the games.
Highlight:
Got really drunk at Judy's (Byron's coworker) 30th Birthday Partay. Nice ass house too...who would have thought we were in San Lorenzo!
Lowlight:
Trying to sober up real qucik to take someone home...boo. But they ended up calling someone to pick them up.
Highlight:
Byron got hit on by a gay guy who quickly realized that Byron was into girls.
Lowlight:
Wasn't there to witness it since I was "closing my eyes" in a reclining chair in the computer room by the indoor pool.
Highlight:
Finished 30 centerpieces, 50 favor tins and 150 favor tags.
Lowlight:
Took about 6 hours to complete, didn't shower until 10pm.
*sigh* Back to work. I hate Mondays...
Good weekend. Not like those marathon weekends where Byron and I have about 16 billion things planned every minute. Got to see family, friends and got a lot of wedding stuff done too!
Highlight:
Saw my uncle (dad's bro), aunt and 3 cousins from the Netherlands.
Lowlight:
My sister, Ben and the kids were in LA.
Highlight:
Free food at the Wyndham for our taste test.
Lowlight:
Mom and Dad were running late. Byron was upset because he didn't think that we wouldn't make it on time.
Highlight:
Won a free $5 Starbucks card at Yvette's baby shower.
Lowlight:
Yvette gave us the card because she felt bad for us, since we really didn't win any of the games.
Highlight:
Got really drunk at Judy's (Byron's coworker) 30th Birthday Partay. Nice ass house too...who would have thought we were in San Lorenzo!
Lowlight:
Trying to sober up real qucik to take someone home...boo. But they ended up calling someone to pick them up.
Highlight:
Byron got hit on by a gay guy who quickly realized that Byron was into girls.
Lowlight:
Wasn't there to witness it since I was "closing my eyes" in a reclining chair in the computer room by the indoor pool.
Highlight:
Finished 30 centerpieces, 50 favor tins and 150 favor tags.
Lowlight:
Took about 6 hours to complete, didn't shower until 10pm.
*sigh* Back to work. I hate Mondays...
Friday, July 29, 2005
spam
No, I'm not talking about the tasty breakfast treat that you've been eating for as long as you can remember. I'm talking about those "nasty" emails you get from people you don't know trying to sell you something or recruit you into doing something.
I send out recruiting emails to people who's resumes I see online. Technically speaking, I'm not "spamming" them because I didn't buy their email addresses from another company's database. I'm an actual person looking at their resume and thinking that they would be a good fit for what I'm recruiting for.
Unfortunately, some don't see it that way. Here's an example of a reply email that I received from a potential candidate:
"Jesus Christ, you guys just keep spamming. It's a good thing I don't have insurance with xxxxxxx, because I'd hate to have to spend time switching insurers. I will add xxxxxxx Insurance to my email filters, and I will call my friend who is a xxxxxxx agent to ask him why his company is actively antagonizing thousands of consumers by spamming them."
He then proceeds to email me another message:
"Oh, and look: you scumbags even use an INVALID CONTACT PHONE NUMBER. FUCK OFF
It probably took him about 10 minutes to eloquently express himself, the time that it would have taken him to follow-up on the job emails that really mattered.
Some people are so quick to pass judgement on how we conduct business around here. What a fucking moron.
No, I'm not talking about the tasty breakfast treat that you've been eating for as long as you can remember. I'm talking about those "nasty" emails you get from people you don't know trying to sell you something or recruit you into doing something.
I send out recruiting emails to people who's resumes I see online. Technically speaking, I'm not "spamming" them because I didn't buy their email addresses from another company's database. I'm an actual person looking at their resume and thinking that they would be a good fit for what I'm recruiting for.
Unfortunately, some don't see it that way. Here's an example of a reply email that I received from a potential candidate:
"Jesus Christ, you guys just keep spamming. It's a good thing I don't have insurance with xxxxxxx, because I'd hate to have to spend time switching insurers. I will add xxxxxxx Insurance to my email filters, and I will call my friend who is a xxxxxxx agent to ask him why his company is actively antagonizing thousands of consumers by spamming them."
He then proceeds to email me another message:
"Oh, and look: you scumbags even use an INVALID CONTACT PHONE NUMBER. FUCK OFF
It probably took him about 10 minutes to eloquently express himself, the time that it would have taken him to follow-up on the job emails that really mattered.
Some people are so quick to pass judgement on how we conduct business around here. What a fucking moron.
Thursday, July 28, 2005
search engines
I know everyone has done a search on their own name, names of friends, etc.
This is what I found. Scary! I'm glad it's just a fictional journal though (read the profile).
More babies coming! YES! I guess me and Byron should catch up!
I know everyone has done a search on their own name, names of friends, etc.
This is what I found. Scary! I'm glad it's just a fictional journal though (read the profile).
More babies coming! YES! I guess me and Byron should catch up!
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
money to burn
Sometimes I wish that I had money to burn. I know many people how are always fitted in expensive clothing, different outfits everyday, make-up like you wouldn't believe, nice cars, always down for some fine dining, electronic toys, etc. But then again a lot of these people still live a home with their parents. And the funny thing about these people is that they actually complain about living at home. Save some money and stop buying crap for yourself!
Even though I can't really afford the fancy things in life (the only bling I got is on my left finger), at least I'm not living with my parents. I don't mean to offend anyone with my sweeping generalization (based on personal experience with such aformentioned folks), I'm sure that there are plenty of people that live with the 'rents, but are trying their damndest to be on their own. What I'm saying is that there are folks out there who don't, nor will they in the near future.
Just my 2 cents...
Sometimes I wish that I had money to burn. I know many people how are always fitted in expensive clothing, different outfits everyday, make-up like you wouldn't believe, nice cars, always down for some fine dining, electronic toys, etc. But then again a lot of these people still live a home with their parents. And the funny thing about these people is that they actually complain about living at home. Save some money and stop buying crap for yourself!
Even though I can't really afford the fancy things in life (the only bling I got is on my left finger), at least I'm not living with my parents. I don't mean to offend anyone with my sweeping generalization (based on personal experience with such aformentioned folks), I'm sure that there are plenty of people that live with the 'rents, but are trying their damndest to be on their own. What I'm saying is that there are folks out there who don't, nor will they in the near future.
Just my 2 cents...
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
spoilers
I think that I am one of the few people that haven't seen the last installment of Star Wars. What doesn't help is that my husby-to-be isn't a really avid movie-goer, but these days I'm not really down to spend $10 to watch a movie. I'll wait for it to come out on DVD. My wonderful mother however, decidedly spoiled the movie for me, but it's just one of those things where I already saw the other 5 might as well finish off the series.
I did get to see Wedding Crashers this weekend which was promised by someone to be a "knee-slapping good time." It lived up to that , although I would add shake-back-and-forth-in-your-chair, violently-slap-and-shake-the-person-who-went-with-you-to-see-it, I'll-more-than-likely-buy-the-DVD comedy o' the year. It was definitely $5.25 well spent and I got to spend some QT with my better half. The funniest part was when _______ was ______ while they were ________. Hilare.
I give the movie 4 out of 5 bridezillas.
I think that I am one of the few people that haven't seen the last installment of Star Wars. What doesn't help is that my husby-to-be isn't a really avid movie-goer, but these days I'm not really down to spend $10 to watch a movie. I'll wait for it to come out on DVD. My wonderful mother however, decidedly spoiled the movie for me, but it's just one of those things where I already saw the other 5 might as well finish off the series.
I did get to see Wedding Crashers this weekend which was promised by someone to be a "knee-slapping good time." It lived up to that , although I would add shake-back-and-forth-in-your-chair, violently-slap-and-shake-the-person-who-went-with-you-to-see-it, I'll-more-than-likely-buy-the-DVD comedy o' the year. It was definitely $5.25 well spent and I got to spend some QT with my better half. The funniest part was when _______ was ______ while they were ________. Hilare.
I give the movie 4 out of 5 bridezillas.
Friday, July 22, 2005
greatful
Thank you Ms. ocraP for curing my boredom at work!
Three names you go by:
1. Dawn
2. Babe
3. Auntie Dawn
Three screen names you have had:
1. Piglet486
2. KaunaMaile
3. DevAngel
Three physical things you like about yourself:
1. Breasts
2. Butt
3. Nose
Three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. Stomach
2. Square Palms
3. Double chin
Three parts of your heritage:
1. Filipina
2. Ilocana
3. Uh...yeah.
Three things that scare you:
1. Wasps
2. Big Ass Cockroaches
3. Chuckie Doll
Three of your everyday essentials:
1. Brushing teeth
2. Washing face
3. Eating
Three of your favorite musical artists:
1. Jason Mraz
2. John Mayer
3. Gavin Degraw
Three of your favorite songs:
1. Beautiful Soul (jesse mccartney)
2. You and Me (lifehouse)
3. The Light (common)
Three things you want in a relationship:
1. Love
2. Trust
3. Understanding
Three lies and truths in no particular order:
(lies)
1. Your baby is so cute.
2. I love what you did to this place.
3. I'll call you.
(truths)
1. the sky is blue because it is a reflection of the ocean.
2. lies make baby jesus cry.
3. there's no crying in baseball, but there is steroid use.
Three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. Large Hands...and not for the size of their "thing" issue.
2. How a big bear hug can make your troubles go away, even if it's just for a moment.
3. Clean shaven (I hate scruffy, hairy guys)
Three of your favorite hobbies:
1. Blogging
2. Making crafts
3. Walking outside on a nice night
Three things you want to do really badly now:
1. Go pee
2. Have lunch by myself
3. Go home and start the weekend already
Three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. Counselor/Advisor
2. Insurance Agent
3. District Retail Manager
*currently not pursuing any of these. HA!
Three places you want to go on vacation:
1. Tahiti
2. Philippines
3. Europe
Three kids’ names you like:
1. Jenna
2. Brandon
3. Gertrude
Three things you want to do before you die:
1. Have kids
2. Get married
3. Take a vacation
Three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. Kissing girls is nice
2. Watch sports and can speak on it
3. Pee with the door open
Three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. Super emotional
2. Love "Wedding Story" and "Baby Story"
3. Love the penis. LOVE IT.
Three celeb crushes:
1. Justin Timberlake
2. Matt Damon
3. JT Snow
Now it's your turn! FOUR people that I would like to see take this quiz now:
1. Joy
2. Lani
3. Jackie
4. Miah
Thank you Ms. ocraP for curing my boredom at work!
Three names you go by:
1. Dawn
2. Babe
3. Auntie Dawn
Three screen names you have had:
1. Piglet486
2. KaunaMaile
3. DevAngel
Three physical things you like about yourself:
1. Breasts
2. Butt
3. Nose
Three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. Stomach
2. Square Palms
3. Double chin
Three parts of your heritage:
1. Filipina
2. Ilocana
3. Uh...yeah.
Three things that scare you:
1. Wasps
2. Big Ass Cockroaches
3. Chuckie Doll
Three of your everyday essentials:
1. Brushing teeth
2. Washing face
3. Eating
Three of your favorite musical artists:
1. Jason Mraz
2. John Mayer
3. Gavin Degraw
Three of your favorite songs:
1. Beautiful Soul (jesse mccartney)
2. You and Me (lifehouse)
3. The Light (common)
Three things you want in a relationship:
1. Love
2. Trust
3. Understanding
Three lies and truths in no particular order:
(lies)
1. Your baby is so cute.
2. I love what you did to this place.
3. I'll call you.
(truths)
1. the sky is blue because it is a reflection of the ocean.
2. lies make baby jesus cry.
3. there's no crying in baseball, but there is steroid use.
Three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. Large Hands...and not for the size of their "thing" issue.
2. How a big bear hug can make your troubles go away, even if it's just for a moment.
3. Clean shaven (I hate scruffy, hairy guys)
Three of your favorite hobbies:
1. Blogging
2. Making crafts
3. Walking outside on a nice night
Three things you want to do really badly now:
1. Go pee
2. Have lunch by myself
3. Go home and start the weekend already
Three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. Counselor/Advisor
2. Insurance Agent
3. District Retail Manager
*currently not pursuing any of these. HA!
Three places you want to go on vacation:
1. Tahiti
2. Philippines
3. Europe
Three kids’ names you like:
1. Jenna
2. Brandon
3. Gertrude
Three things you want to do before you die:
1. Have kids
2. Get married
3. Take a vacation
Three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. Kissing girls is nice
2. Watch sports and can speak on it
3. Pee with the door open
Three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. Super emotional
2. Love "Wedding Story" and "Baby Story"
3. Love the penis. LOVE IT.
Three celeb crushes:
1. Justin Timberlake
2. Matt Damon
3. JT Snow
Now it's your turn! FOUR people that I would like to see take this quiz now:
1. Joy
2. Lani
3. Jackie
4. Miah
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
Monday, July 18, 2005
tagged
01. If you woke up tomorrow morning and you were the opposite gender, what would be the first thing you'd do?
explain myself to Byron because he may freak out.
02. If you could be invisible for a whole day, what would you do?
walk around naked. i've always wanted to do that.
03. If you could completely get rid of one fashion trend that you personally don't like, what would it be?
hmm...i guess i would have to spend more time with fashionable people to answer that.
04. If you could dye your hair ANY color, what color would you choose?
uh...green. definitely.
05. If you could look like any celebrity, who would you choose and why?
jessica alba...or that vanessa minillo (sp?)
06. If you could spend one hour with ANYONE, (alive or dead) who would it be, and why?
my grandpas. i was really young when they both died.
07. If you won a million dollars in the lottery, what would you do with the money?
pay off everything...wedding included.
08. If you could tell one person ANYTHING, what would it be, and who would it be?
a certain SOMEONE i was referring to in my xanga.
09. If you saw your favorite celebrity in the street, what would be your first reaction?
*drool*...*thud*
10. If you could change your first name to anything you wanted, what would you change it to?
too much trouble w/ paperwork and all that shit.
11. What's one feature of your appearance that you absolutely like?
my breasts.
12. If you were told today that you had only a month to live, what would be all the things you would do, or say before you died?
spend every waking moment with my family and Byron. i'd make sure that they all know that i love them very much.
13. If you could change any part of your appearance, what would it be?
my stomach area. why won't you be flat?
14. If you had your own line of cosmetics, what would you call it, and what kind of products would you make?
not creative enough to make something myself...i'll just buy cicely's product.
15. If you had your own line of underwear, how would you design it?
something that won't ever stain.
16. If you could have one super power, what would it be?
the ability to teleport.
17. If you had the choice would you rather be Marilyn Monroe for a day, or Madonna?
neither. MM died at a young age and while i'm a fan of Madonna's music, i'm not a fan of Madonna.
18. Do you believe your dreams have significance?
yeah...my insecurities realized.
19. Total number of films I own on DVD/video:
not enough.
20. The last film I bought:
meet the fockers.
21. Last film I watched at home:
napoleon dynamite.
22. 6 films I watch a lot or mean a lot to me:
all 5 kevin smith movies and jerry maguire.
23. Tag 5 people and have them answer these questions on their blog:
jackie, cheryll, jenn, jeff, miah...tag! you're it!
01. If you woke up tomorrow morning and you were the opposite gender, what would be the first thing you'd do?
explain myself to Byron because he may freak out.
02. If you could be invisible for a whole day, what would you do?
walk around naked. i've always wanted to do that.
03. If you could completely get rid of one fashion trend that you personally don't like, what would it be?
hmm...i guess i would have to spend more time with fashionable people to answer that.
04. If you could dye your hair ANY color, what color would you choose?
uh...green. definitely.
05. If you could look like any celebrity, who would you choose and why?
jessica alba...or that vanessa minillo (sp?)
06. If you could spend one hour with ANYONE, (alive or dead) who would it be, and why?
my grandpas. i was really young when they both died.
07. If you won a million dollars in the lottery, what would you do with the money?
pay off everything...wedding included.
08. If you could tell one person ANYTHING, what would it be, and who would it be?
a certain SOMEONE i was referring to in my xanga.
09. If you saw your favorite celebrity in the street, what would be your first reaction?
*drool*...*thud*
10. If you could change your first name to anything you wanted, what would you change it to?
too much trouble w/ paperwork and all that shit.
11. What's one feature of your appearance that you absolutely like?
my breasts.
12. If you were told today that you had only a month to live, what would be all the things you would do, or say before you died?
spend every waking moment with my family and Byron. i'd make sure that they all know that i love them very much.
13. If you could change any part of your appearance, what would it be?
my stomach area. why won't you be flat?
14. If you had your own line of cosmetics, what would you call it, and what kind of products would you make?
not creative enough to make something myself...i'll just buy cicely's product.
15. If you had your own line of underwear, how would you design it?
something that won't ever stain.
16. If you could have one super power, what would it be?
the ability to teleport.
17. If you had the choice would you rather be Marilyn Monroe for a day, or Madonna?
neither. MM died at a young age and while i'm a fan of Madonna's music, i'm not a fan of Madonna.
18. Do you believe your dreams have significance?
yeah...my insecurities realized.
19. Total number of films I own on DVD/video:
not enough.
20. The last film I bought:
meet the fockers.
21. Last film I watched at home:
napoleon dynamite.
22. 6 films I watch a lot or mean a lot to me:
all 5 kevin smith movies and jerry maguire.
23. Tag 5 people and have them answer these questions on their blog:
jackie, cheryll, jenn, jeff, miah...tag! you're it!
Friday, July 15, 2005
long hair
This past week's heat has made me want one thing: short hair
While I realize that there are many benefits for long hair, I'm still wanting it short again. While taking a break, it felt like something was crawling on my arm. I looked to see that it was my hair. WTF?
At least it's not long enough to have hair murphs out of the shower.
*Sigh* I need some A/C right now. It doesn't help that I'm totally full from lunch.
This past week's heat has made me want one thing: short hair
While I realize that there are many benefits for long hair, I'm still wanting it short again. While taking a break, it felt like something was crawling on my arm. I looked to see that it was my hair. WTF?
At least it's not long enough to have hair murphs out of the shower.
*Sigh* I need some A/C right now. It doesn't help that I'm totally full from lunch.
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
PSA
PEOPLE NEED TO STOP USING CRACK.
Seriously folks, it's gettin' out of hand here. While I have come to terms with the fact that there are stupid people out there, crack does not help the cause.
Example #1: Using coins for major purchases.
I'm one of those lucky people who get to stand behind them in line with one item, while they are buying groceries for a family of 20 with a big ass jar of quarters. At least have them pre-rolled to make the transaction go quicker.
Example #2: Asking every question humanly possible about what a food item is made with.
You've just upped your chances of getting your food spit in...and not by the server.
Example #3: "I know I'm not calling the right place, but maybe you could help me."
And maybe hell will freeze over as we watch pigs fly over our heads and monkeys out of my ass.
Hurry up weekend...I'm waiting for your ass!
PEOPLE NEED TO STOP USING CRACK.
Seriously folks, it's gettin' out of hand here. While I have come to terms with the fact that there are stupid people out there, crack does not help the cause.
Example #1: Using coins for major purchases.
I'm one of those lucky people who get to stand behind them in line with one item, while they are buying groceries for a family of 20 with a big ass jar of quarters. At least have them pre-rolled to make the transaction go quicker.
Example #2: Asking every question humanly possible about what a food item is made with.
You've just upped your chances of getting your food spit in...and not by the server.
Example #3: "I know I'm not calling the right place, but maybe you could help me."
And maybe hell will freeze over as we watch pigs fly over our heads and monkeys out of my ass.
Hurry up weekend...I'm waiting for your ass!
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
fruit
Who knew strawberries and pineapple would be quite refreshing on a hot summer day such as this one?
It's 4:30pm. I'm SOOOO READY to go home. I could leave early...I had to drop my boss off at the BART station. Hmm...decisions, decisions.
Why can't motivation to work out be the same as motivation to eat ice cream? One of the many wonders of the world...
I still hate it when ugly girls try to act cute. Ugh. What I hate more than that is when ugly girls think they're cute. Hello Cleopatra...Queen of Denial.
Who knew strawberries and pineapple would be quite refreshing on a hot summer day such as this one?
It's 4:30pm. I'm SOOOO READY to go home. I could leave early...I had to drop my boss off at the BART station. Hmm...decisions, decisions.
Why can't motivation to work out be the same as motivation to eat ice cream? One of the many wonders of the world...
I still hate it when ugly girls try to act cute. Ugh. What I hate more than that is when ugly girls think they're cute. Hello Cleopatra...Queen of Denial.
Monday, July 11, 2005
Thursday, July 07, 2005
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
and we're back.
What a busy weekend...I had 4 days off and it still wasn't enough! WTH!
Friday: Worked out, went grocery shopping, Ohana for lunch w/ babe at work, drove to San Jose for Tahiti Fete to see Taryn dance but fuckin' missed her because they started early! When do those things ever start on time! BOOO! Picked up babe at work w/ 2 Mocha Fraps in hand, crossed the bridge to IKEA in the EPA, found candles and candleholders for the centerpieces super cheap, Wal-Mart at Macarthy Ranch, on to DnB for dinner and drinks w/ old coworkers. It was fun, but I was faded off 3 margaritas...who's weaksauce now?
Saturday: Woke up butt ass early to get ready to watch Roycee dance at Tahiti Fete, didn't want the same thing to happen that happened to me the prior day so we were there extra early...and guess what...they DIDN'T start on time! Bastards! Stayed there until about 11a (got there at 9a) left to Byron's parents house for Jun's grad party...that started at 5p! Setting up for what seemed like days in the hot ass sun and didn't leave until 3a! Babe's cousin's are pretty funny...I'm so the daughter now.
But wait...there's more...
Sunday: Got up to clean for our potluck/BBQ/day before the 4th. Ate hella in the climate controlled kitchen w/ 10 kids under foot. Illegal fireworks display which everyone enjoyed however I now know what a heart attack feels like. Police came, but like 3 hours later and didn't really do anything but talk to my dad. Had 4 Smirnoff Ices (the twisted kind) within a span of 1 hour after everyone had already left, was drunk as all heezy and babe didn't even have a glass of water next to me on the nightstand! Guess he doesn't know what it feels like to take care of a drunk person.
Monday: Cleaned house like mad people, waited for my lil shit, one of my kids and Katherine to come on over. I heart my sisters! Almost done w/ the invites (cutting them at least), had some ice cream and chocolate cake...now feeling like a fat ass. Some good sex too.
I'm tired and want to go in my car and sleep. Why is it so windy? I hope BART doesn't go on strike tomorrow otherwise I'm likely to kill someone tomorrow.
Lesson learned: Even if the weekend was extended, it's still not enough time.
What a busy weekend...I had 4 days off and it still wasn't enough! WTH!
Friday: Worked out, went grocery shopping, Ohana for lunch w/ babe at work, drove to San Jose for Tahiti Fete to see Taryn dance but fuckin' missed her because they started early! When do those things ever start on time! BOOO! Picked up babe at work w/ 2 Mocha Fraps in hand, crossed the bridge to IKEA in the EPA, found candles and candleholders for the centerpieces super cheap, Wal-Mart at Macarthy Ranch, on to DnB for dinner and drinks w/ old coworkers. It was fun, but I was faded off 3 margaritas...who's weaksauce now?
Saturday: Woke up butt ass early to get ready to watch Roycee dance at Tahiti Fete, didn't want the same thing to happen that happened to me the prior day so we were there extra early...and guess what...they DIDN'T start on time! Bastards! Stayed there until about 11a (got there at 9a) left to Byron's parents house for Jun's grad party...that started at 5p! Setting up for what seemed like days in the hot ass sun and didn't leave until 3a! Babe's cousin's are pretty funny...I'm so the daughter now.
But wait...there's more...
Sunday: Got up to clean for our potluck/BBQ/day before the 4th. Ate hella in the climate controlled kitchen w/ 10 kids under foot. Illegal fireworks display which everyone enjoyed however I now know what a heart attack feels like. Police came, but like 3 hours later and didn't really do anything but talk to my dad. Had 4 Smirnoff Ices (the twisted kind) within a span of 1 hour after everyone had already left, was drunk as all heezy and babe didn't even have a glass of water next to me on the nightstand! Guess he doesn't know what it feels like to take care of a drunk person.
Monday: Cleaned house like mad people, waited for my lil shit, one of my kids and Katherine to come on over. I heart my sisters! Almost done w/ the invites (cutting them at least), had some ice cream and chocolate cake...now feeling like a fat ass. Some good sex too.
I'm tired and want to go in my car and sleep. Why is it so windy? I hope BART doesn't go on strike tomorrow otherwise I'm likely to kill someone tomorrow.
Lesson learned: Even if the weekend was extended, it's still not enough time.
Thursday, June 30, 2005
headache
I have the worst headache known to man right now. Women can relate, especially if you get headaches instead of cramps during that time of month. I thought that some sugar-free mint milanos would help, but no it doesn't.
And my dumbass left my Midol at home.
Weekend's here in 2 hours though! Hurry up, weekend! I'm dying over here!
I have the worst headache known to man right now. Women can relate, especially if you get headaches instead of cramps during that time of month. I thought that some sugar-free mint milanos would help, but no it doesn't.
And my dumbass left my Midol at home.
Weekend's here in 2 hours though! Hurry up, weekend! I'm dying over here!
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Monday, June 27, 2005
pee-pee dance
Drinking a gallon of water a day causes you visit the facilities 5+ times a day.
Byron and I had really bad gas last night and we had to leave the window open for circulation's sake.
I realize that the last sentence was TMI, but ask me if I care.
I have been displaced from my work area into a vacant office because my boss' sister-in-law is doing work there. I'm kinda really liking having my own office, so it's gonna suck when she doesn't come in anymore.
I had a opportunity for Free Lunch Monday today, but I already ate my salad. Good thing I have Friday off now because now I don't feel so jipped.
Who the hell made up the word "jipped" anyway? Maybe the same person that made up "moded?" I'd like to meet that guy.
CONGRATS TO MIAH ON HIS NEW JOB! (will you come visit me now?)
Drinking a gallon of water a day causes you visit the facilities 5+ times a day.
Byron and I had really bad gas last night and we had to leave the window open for circulation's sake.
I realize that the last sentence was TMI, but ask me if I care.
I have been displaced from my work area into a vacant office because my boss' sister-in-law is doing work there. I'm kinda really liking having my own office, so it's gonna suck when she doesn't come in anymore.
I had a opportunity for Free Lunch Monday today, but I already ate my salad. Good thing I have Friday off now because now I don't feel so jipped.
Who the hell made up the word "jipped" anyway? Maybe the same person that made up "moded?" I'd like to meet that guy.
CONGRATS TO MIAH ON HIS NEW JOB! (will you come visit me now?)
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
strength, courage and wisdom
Last week I found out that my aunt has stage 2 breast cancer. It made me realize that we are not invincible and nothing lasts forever. I'm having a hard time with how close it is to me. I mean, I know that cancer runs in the family, but I didn't know how close it was. I'm buying those pink bracelets and giving one to every female member in my family. Sometimes we just need to be reminded.
On another not-so-related-but-kinda subject, I had a dream last night where I was breast feeding my child. Weird.
Last week I found out that my aunt has stage 2 breast cancer. It made me realize that we are not invincible and nothing lasts forever. I'm having a hard time with how close it is to me. I mean, I know that cancer runs in the family, but I didn't know how close it was. I'm buying those pink bracelets and giving one to every female member in my family. Sometimes we just need to be reminded.
On another not-so-related-but-kinda subject, I had a dream last night where I was breast feeding my child. Weird.
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
summertime
7 reasons why driving a black car sucks
1. It gets hella hot in Walnut Creek...and I work there.
2. Sure, it's sexy after it's washed, but 1 day later...it looks dirty again.
3. People always ask you why you got a black car because of reason #1.
4. Not very visible in the dark = hit and run.
5. People make fun of the fact that it has a dark interior as well.
6. Nobody likes to ride in it especially after reason #1.
7. It attracts mosquitos for some reason.
7 reasons why driving a black car sucks
1. It gets hella hot in Walnut Creek...and I work there.
2. Sure, it's sexy after it's washed, but 1 day later...it looks dirty again.
3. People always ask you why you got a black car because of reason #1.
4. Not very visible in the dark = hit and run.
5. People make fun of the fact that it has a dark interior as well.
6. Nobody likes to ride in it especially after reason #1.
7. It attracts mosquitos for some reason.
Monday, June 20, 2005
fat ass
I worked out but once this past week. Dammit. Hardcore this week though...Hardcore
I hate getting the sad face from my mom. It is so easy to make me feel guilty. I really wish she didn't know that.
Why do moms make comments about weight loss, then hella feed you afterwards? What kind of message is that? Do you want me to be fat or not?
I can't believe Liza is getting married! Yay engagements!
Man. I'm broke as a joke until the 1st of the month. And that stupid Bone Thugs song keeps playin' in my head. Sucks.
I got a case of the Mondays.
I worked out but once this past week. Dammit. Hardcore this week though...Hardcore
I hate getting the sad face from my mom. It is so easy to make me feel guilty. I really wish she didn't know that.
Why do moms make comments about weight loss, then hella feed you afterwards? What kind of message is that? Do you want me to be fat or not?
I can't believe Liza is getting married! Yay engagements!
Man. I'm broke as a joke until the 1st of the month. And that stupid Bone Thugs song keeps playin' in my head. Sucks.
I got a case of the Mondays.
Friday, June 17, 2005
incomplete
I am bored as all hell today at work, so what do I do? Browse xangas of course! I came upon some for some of my sisters who were freshman when I was in my last quarter in school. It got me thinking about 2 things 1) how effin' old I am now and 2) the list of things that I was supposed to do before I left SB. Let's take a gander at that list shall we?
1. Go fishing in the reflecting pool at Storke Tower
2. Light my cigarette on the Eternal Flame
3. Watch the sun come up from the RBR
4. Drive Lucky through campus
5. Get drunk at Chilito's at the UCen during school hours
6. Throw a slammin' apartment party
7. Have sex somewhere on campus, excluding on-campus dorm rooms
I was able to complete 3 of the seven aformentioned. Which 3 I'll leave to your imagination *evil laugh* Happy Friday Everyone!
I am bored as all hell today at work, so what do I do? Browse xangas of course! I came upon some for some of my sisters who were freshman when I was in my last quarter in school. It got me thinking about 2 things 1) how effin' old I am now and 2) the list of things that I was supposed to do before I left SB. Let's take a gander at that list shall we?
1. Go fishing in the reflecting pool at Storke Tower
2. Light my cigarette on the Eternal Flame
3. Watch the sun come up from the RBR
4. Drive Lucky through campus
5. Get drunk at Chilito's at the UCen during school hours
6. Throw a slammin' apartment party
7. Have sex somewhere on campus, excluding on-campus dorm rooms
I was able to complete 3 of the seven aformentioned. Which 3 I'll leave to your imagination *evil laugh* Happy Friday Everyone!
Thursday, June 16, 2005
truth is...
12 honest answers to questions that you don't want honestly answered:
1. No, your child scares the bejezzus out of me.
2. The jeans don't make your butt look big, your butt does.
3. That make-up looks like you put it on using your toes or something.
4. You're not thick, you're FAT.
5. I'll tell you what I told my dog when he wanted to become a cat: IT AIN'T GONNA HAPPEN.
6. You're right. It is you.
7. I don't like hanging out with you, so the answer is no.
8. You are turning into your mother.
9. Please don't bother me with your stupid problems.
10. That color looks awful on you, Kool-Aid.
11. Just put a bag over your head and everything will be okay.
12. Your name and face do not ring a bell...at all.
12 honest answers to questions that you don't want honestly answered:
1. No, your child scares the bejezzus out of me.
2. The jeans don't make your butt look big, your butt does.
3. That make-up looks like you put it on using your toes or something.
4. You're not thick, you're FAT.
5. I'll tell you what I told my dog when he wanted to become a cat: IT AIN'T GONNA HAPPEN.
6. You're right. It is you.
7. I don't like hanging out with you, so the answer is no.
8. You are turning into your mother.
9. Please don't bother me with your stupid problems.
10. That color looks awful on you, Kool-Aid.
11. Just put a bag over your head and everything will be okay.
12. Your name and face do not ring a bell...at all.
"I'm so happy for you..."
People say it all the time...but do they really mean it?
I know that I've said this to some people at one point in my life and it kinda makes me wonder about the people that don't say it. I heard that if you love someone, you're happy for them whatever they decide to do with their lives. So does that mean that the people that aren't happy for you, never loved you?
People say it all the time...but do they really mean it?
I know that I've said this to some people at one point in my life and it kinda makes me wonder about the people that don't say it. I heard that if you love someone, you're happy for them whatever they decide to do with their lives. So does that mean that the people that aren't happy for you, never loved you?
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
when the cat's away...
Damn Skippy the mice will play! My boss is out of the office until 3pm. Woo hoo!
Byron made some fried rice last night. Yummy. Babe, if you're reading this...GOOD JOB!
I think it's funny that I love dogs even though I'm allergic to them. It's kind of ironic.
Hace mucho calor lately...too bad it's scheduled to rain this weekend.
POLL: If you and your husband's relative had the same first and middle name, would you take his last name? Would you trip about not being the only person in the family to have that name?
Damn Skippy the mice will play! My boss is out of the office until 3pm. Woo hoo!
Byron made some fried rice last night. Yummy. Babe, if you're reading this...GOOD JOB!
I think it's funny that I love dogs even though I'm allergic to them. It's kind of ironic.
Hace mucho calor lately...too bad it's scheduled to rain this weekend.
POLL: If you and your husband's relative had the same first and middle name, would you take his last name? Would you trip about not being the only person in the family to have that name?
Monday, June 13, 2005
you don't make friends with salad
I bought an Italian blend of lettuce for salad. To my pleasant surprise, it tasted better with my Italian dressing. Go figure.
I wonder how long I can keep this weight loss stuff up. All I did this weekend was sit in an audience (CSUHEB Commencement & Rianna's dance recital) and eat afterwards (Buffet and Chili's).
I'm tired of my love/hate relationship with food. It's very stressful.
I bought an Italian blend of lettuce for salad. To my pleasant surprise, it tasted better with my Italian dressing. Go figure.
I wonder how long I can keep this weight loss stuff up. All I did this weekend was sit in an audience (CSU
I'm tired of my love/hate relationship with food. It's very stressful.
Friday, June 10, 2005
my favorite things
1. Coffee on a Friday Morning
2. Taryn & Royce
3. Hanging out in SB with my sisters
4. Family gatherings at Mountain House
5. Spider rolls and edamame
6. Laughing with my real sister and brother
7. Driving Lucky
8. Kisses and Hugs
9. Lying in bed on a Sunday morning with babe
10. Getting emails during work
11. The feeling I get after working out
12. Finding $5 in my jeans pocket
13. Pop music
14. My engagement ring
15. Clam Chowder and fried oysters from Splash
16. Reading other people's online journals
17. People commenting on my journal
18. Dancing
19. Singing
20. Living
Congrats to the grads! The real world sucks! You're gonna love it!
1. Coffee on a Friday Morning
2. Taryn & Royce
3. Hanging out in SB with my sisters
4. Family gatherings at Mountain House
5. Spider rolls and edamame
6. Laughing with my real sister and brother
7. Driving Lucky
8. Kisses and Hugs
9. Lying in bed on a Sunday morning with babe
10. Getting emails during work
11. The feeling I get after working out
12. Finding $5 in my jeans pocket
13. Pop music
14. My engagement ring
15. Clam Chowder and fried oysters from Splash
16. Reading other people's online journals
17. People commenting on my journal
18. Dancing
19. Singing
20. Living
Congrats to the grads! The real world sucks! You're gonna love it!
Thursday, June 09, 2005
chaotic
Has anyone seen this show? Britney and Kevin are so white trash...it's not even funny. I was watching the whole time thinking are they for real? Britney's kind of a slut. The previews for next week are of their wedding...and guess who's TiVoing that shit.
Yup, I'm a sucker for celebrity reality shows or any reality show for that matter.
Has anyone seen this show? Britney and Kevin are so white trash...it's not even funny. I was watching the whole time thinking are they for real? Britney's kind of a slut. The previews for next week are of their wedding...and guess who's TiVoing that shit.
Yup, I'm a sucker for celebrity reality shows or any reality show for that matter.
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
Oh Mother Nature
Last time I checked a calendar, I saw that it was June. What the hell...rain? Oh Mother Nature, why must you fuck with us so? Is it that time of month? Because if it is I totally understand...
I hate being left alone on a Tuesday night. I also don't like being yelled at (well, more of a "I'm worried about you" yell than a "Die bitch, die!" kind of yell) while half asleep. I'm not mad, I just don't have anything to say... That's on the real tho.
I gave in a bought some stuff online. Hopefully, I'll get it on Friday. We'll see though. I still do not know what to wear this Saturday. What the hell man, it's not like a formal event or anything...why am I being so indecisive? But I tried on some dresses that I haven't worn since the summer before my last year in college...and they fit! Woo hoo me!
Yogurt is delicious twice a day. Oatmeal ain't that bad either. According to my sister, "It makes you HELLA regular." Damn skippy!
Mountain House = 3 cars, 2 drivers
Union City = 3 cars, 5 drivers
My Lucky will be on loan to my sister while her car's in the shop. Sigh...I don't like automatic in traffic. I will miss you Lucky.
The crap I don't talk about on here anymore Enjoy!
Happy Hump Day everyone!
Last time I checked a calendar, I saw that it was June. What the hell...rain? Oh Mother Nature, why must you fuck with us so? Is it that time of month? Because if it is I totally understand...
I hate being left alone on a Tuesday night. I also don't like being yelled at (well, more of a "I'm worried about you" yell than a "Die bitch, die!" kind of yell) while half asleep. I'm not mad, I just don't have anything to say... That's on the real tho.
I gave in a bought some stuff online. Hopefully, I'll get it on Friday. We'll see though. I still do not know what to wear this Saturday. What the hell man, it's not like a formal event or anything...why am I being so indecisive? But I tried on some dresses that I haven't worn since the summer before my last year in college...and they fit! Woo hoo me!
Yogurt is delicious twice a day. Oatmeal ain't that bad either. According to my sister, "It makes you HELLA regular." Damn skippy!
Mountain House = 3 cars, 2 drivers
Union City = 3 cars, 5 drivers
My Lucky will be on loan to my sister while her car's in the shop. Sigh...I don't like automatic in traffic. I will miss you Lucky.
The crap I don't talk about on here anymore Enjoy!
Happy Hump Day everyone!
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
blast from the past
My lil sis emailed me today and put some pictures in it that brought a smile to my face:
This brought back A LOT of memories, half of which I'm not at liberty to speak of, but let's just say that what goes on in SB, stays in SB.
She also sent me a pic of my cute family:
I wish I was there for installs, but time and money didn't allow.
What's up with all this nostalgia man...it's been like 4 years since I graduated! But look at me now...living in my own home and engaged. I never thought it would be like this.
My lil sis emailed me today and put some pictures in it that brought a smile to my face:
This brought back A LOT of memories, half of which I'm not at liberty to speak of, but let's just say that what goes on in SB, stays in SB.
She also sent me a pic of my cute family:
I wish I was there for installs, but time and money didn't allow.
What's up with all this nostalgia man...it's been like 4 years since I graduated! But look at me now...living in my own home and engaged. I never thought it would be like this.
Monday, June 06, 2005
and...end scene.
I've been super moody over the past couple of days. I won't say that I don't know why because I do and Byron got the brunt end of it since he lives with me. Poor guy.
I've had much on my mind lately and don't really know how to sort it all out. I feel like I'm trying to please everyone else except for myself, which is never good, but only I gotta deal with it right? I've been slacking on my diet and hopefully I can get back on track this week.
Commencement this weekend...woohoo. It's always this time of year that reminds me that I'm an "adult" now.
I've been super moody over the past couple of days. I won't say that I don't know why because I do and Byron got the brunt end of it since he lives with me. Poor guy.
I've had much on my mind lately and don't really know how to sort it all out. I feel like I'm trying to please everyone else except for myself, which is never good, but only I gotta deal with it right? I've been slacking on my diet and hopefully I can get back on track this week.
Commencement this weekend...woohoo. It's always this time of year that reminds me that I'm an "adult" now.
Friday, June 03, 2005
busted
My oh-so-sweet fiance decided to wash and vaccum my car two days ago...and he found my pack of cigarettes in the center console. I know how he feels about that kind of stuff, so I felt really bad when he approached me about it. I don't know why I got back into the habit again...he kept asking me why and I'd simply say "I don't know."
So I got to thinking, it was a comfort for me back then...then I turned to food...and with all my weight-loss efforts, I've reverted back to my old comfort. It's really sad when I think about it. I don't know why I smoke, I don't know why I started in the first place, and I don't know why I'm not committed to quitting.
In other news, I did start a wedding xanga...if you'd like the link, let me know.
Have a super fantastic weekend everyone!
My oh-so-sweet fiance decided to wash and vaccum my car two days ago...and he found my pack of cigarettes in the center console. I know how he feels about that kind of stuff, so I felt really bad when he approached me about it. I don't know why I got back into the habit again...he kept asking me why and I'd simply say "I don't know."
So I got to thinking, it was a comfort for me back then...then I turned to food...and with all my weight-loss efforts, I've reverted back to my old comfort. It's really sad when I think about it. I don't know why I smoke, I don't know why I started in the first place, and I don't know why I'm not committed to quitting.
In other news, I did start a wedding xanga...if you'd like the link, let me know.
Have a super fantastic weekend everyone!
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
in my head
I recently was suckered into join BMG, which is cool because I get CDs that I've been meaning to get. I just never got around to getting them. The things you'd do for a free mini-IPod, which I don't even really think I'm going to get. Oh well.
Because I have this new collection of CDs, I know have music constantly playing in my head. Here's my "grab bag" of lyric snippets for today:
"I believe in the stars across the sky
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
You see, I've waited all my life
For this moment to arrive
And finally...I believe"
"She was a disco light on a Friday night
She moves across the floor
She's oh so tight like dynamite
Blowin' me up with her love."
"You know you did it...I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn"
I'm such a pop-tart.
I recently was suckered into join BMG, which is cool because I get CDs that I've been meaning to get. I just never got around to getting them. The things you'd do for a free mini-IPod, which I don't even really think I'm going to get. Oh well.
Because I have this new collection of CDs, I know have music constantly playing in my head. Here's my "grab bag" of lyric snippets for today:
"I believe in the stars across the sky
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
You see, I've waited all my life
For this moment to arrive
And finally...I believe"
"She was a disco light on a Friday night
She moves across the floor
She's oh so tight like dynamite
Blowin' me up with her love."
"You know you did it...I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn"
I'm such a pop-tart.
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
welcome back
Four days off. Word.
I was surprised that Byron did not have the desire to go to Hayward's PCN. Truthfully, I never really enjoyed sitting through 3 hours of a show (even though I would be in one for 4 years) unless the story and the show itself was truly compelling. I have to say that I did enjoy the last 2 years I went, so I don't know if I'd be missing a whole lot. Byron said that he heard it sucked anyway. Maybe it did, maybe it didn't...I guess we'll never know.
Tricia finally made her way to Mountain House yesterday only to find out that she'll probably be moving to LA within the next couple of months. I guess it's just that time in our lives where the people you love move away and you just kinda have to deal with it. I'm really happy for her though...and her man is the funniest.
I tried some kind of Russian soup today. Borshke is what is called I think. It was delicious.
Four days off. Word.
I was surprised that Byron did not have the desire to go to Hayward's PCN. Truthfully, I never really enjoyed sitting through 3 hours of a show (even though I would be in one for 4 years) unless the story and the show itself was truly compelling. I have to say that I did enjoy the last 2 years I went, so I don't know if I'd be missing a whole lot. Byron said that he heard it sucked anyway. Maybe it did, maybe it didn't...I guess we'll never know.
Tricia finally made her way to Mountain House yesterday only to find out that she'll probably be moving to LA within the next couple of months. I guess it's just that time in our lives where the people you love move away and you just kinda have to deal with it. I'm really happy for her though...and her man is the funniest.
I tried some kind of Russian soup today. Borshke is what is called I think. It was delicious.
Thursday, May 26, 2005
infidelity
I've been contemplating getting a xanga account so I can post comments on other people's xangas. Maybe I can make that into a wedding blog and this will be my main blog. I don't have much experience balancing two relationships like that so any advice is welcome.
You know that feeling you get when you reach into your pocket and find $5? I so feel like that right now. I'm on track for a 4-day weekend. I was going to come into work for a 1/2 day tomorrow because my boss had interviews scheduled in the morning, but then I looked at his calendar and no interviews scheduled! Woo Hoo! I hope my boss okays it...otherwise I won't be a happy camper come tomorrow.
Tae-Bo kicked my ass last night. I'm doing it tonight again for another beating.
I've been contemplating getting a xanga account so I can post comments on other people's xangas. Maybe I can make that into a wedding blog and this will be my main blog. I don't have much experience balancing two relationships like that so any advice is welcome.
You know that feeling you get when you reach into your pocket and find $5? I so feel like that right now. I'm on track for a 4-day weekend. I was going to come into work for a 1/2 day tomorrow because my boss had interviews scheduled in the morning, but then I looked at his calendar and no interviews scheduled! Woo Hoo! I hope my boss okays it...otherwise I won't be a happy camper come tomorrow.
Tae-Bo kicked my ass last night. I'm doing it tonight again for another beating.
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
beautiful
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
I find that I do much of my thinking in the car (I mean I do have a long commute) and I realized that there are some important people in my life that have major body issues. I was thinking about how I've been dieting and exercising in order to feel better about myself. I don't know if I'll ever get down to a size 2, but hey, there's no harm in trying right?
I heard on the radio the other day that Paris Hilton is not happy with her body. Then it got me thinking...is anyone really? My body issues stem from my mother and grandmother. They would always tell me that I was fat and needed to lose weight. I didn't have the metabolism that my sister had and was just a thicker person. The only time that my mom and grandma thought I looked good was senior year of high school when I was still in guard and dancing for 2-3 hours a day.
I proud of myself because I've lost 15 pounds over the past 3 months and have kept it off. I have 5 months until the wedding and have been pretty good about watching what I eat and exercising. It's an uphill battle, but totally worth it in the end. I'm healthier and have more energy.
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
I find that I do much of my thinking in the car (I mean I do have a long commute) and I realized that there are some important people in my life that have major body issues. I was thinking about how I've been dieting and exercising in order to feel better about myself. I don't know if I'll ever get down to a size 2, but hey, there's no harm in trying right?
I heard on the radio the other day that Paris Hilton is not happy with her body. Then it got me thinking...is anyone really? My body issues stem from my mother and grandmother. They would always tell me that I was fat and needed to lose weight. I didn't have the metabolism that my sister had and was just a thicker person. The only time that my mom and grandma thought I looked good was senior year of high school when I was still in guard and dancing for 2-3 hours a day.
I proud of myself because I've lost 15 pounds over the past 3 months and have kept it off. I have 5 months until the wedding and have been pretty good about watching what I eat and exercising. It's an uphill battle, but totally worth it in the end. I'm healthier and have more energy.
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
traffic
Super slow morning here at work. I suppose I could do some wedding stuff...
Isn't it weird how morning traffic can make or break your day? My commute in the morning is about an hour and 30 minutes...today was no picnic on 580. It's cool that we have a good size house, but damn that traffic can be a bitch in the morning.
I need to get motivated to work out again.
Super slow morning here at work. I suppose I could do some wedding stuff...
Isn't it weird how morning traffic can make or break your day? My commute in the morning is about an hour and 30 minutes...today was no picnic on 580. It's cool that we have a good size house, but damn that traffic can be a bitch in the morning.
I need to get motivated to work out again.
Monday, May 23, 2005
revelations
I had my make-up trial yesterday...loved it. MAC make-up is the shit. My girl Christy was with me and with her it's always good times. IHOP always better in good company.
I noticed that my posts are current in the sense that I write about what's affected me at the moment. No real insight regarding past relationships, only memories of the past (UCSB). Maybe I should be more vague about what I write. Maybe I should talk about my exes or somehow bring them up and then use them as an excuse. Maybe I should judge more and call people out. Maybe I should preach more and walk around like my shit don't stink. Maybe I'll get all riled up about people talking about me behind my back and complaining that it's unfair because I can't defend myself...then turn around and talk shit about my ex...knowing damn well that he don't have the chance to defend himself either.
It's none of my business...but what the hell, I'm nosy as fuck.
I had my make-up trial yesterday...loved it. MAC make-up is the shit. My girl Christy was with me and with her it's always good times. IHOP always better in good company.
I noticed that my posts are current in the sense that I write about what's affected me at the moment. No real insight regarding past relationships, only memories of the past (UCSB). Maybe I should be more vague about what I write. Maybe I should talk about my exes or somehow bring them up and then use them as an excuse. Maybe I should judge more and call people out. Maybe I should preach more and walk around like my shit don't stink. Maybe I'll get all riled up about people talking about me behind my back and complaining that it's unfair because I can't defend myself...then turn around and talk shit about my ex...knowing damn well that he don't have the chance to defend himself either.
It's none of my business...but what the hell, I'm nosy as fuck.
Friday, May 20, 2005
Thursday, May 19, 2005
peer pressure
Okay Cheryll, no more wedding talk...for now =P
Total volume of music files on my computer
I'm gonna go ahead and say 0MB as our computer crashed about 2 weeks ago. I'm sure that there were many music files there, however someone had connected the speakers incorrectly and we didn't figure that out until about 2 months ago. Sad.
The last CD I bought
That's a tough one. I think it's "Now That's What I Call Music, Volume 17." The last CD I "recieved" was Gavin DeGraw's "Chariot." You wanna talk about who fell off the Hip-Hop Wagon...I'm your gal.
Song playing right now
...in reality? Nothing, it's silent.
...in my head? "Behind Those Hazel Eyes" by Kelly Clarkson
Five songs I listen to a lot, or mean a lot to me
Make Me Whole - Amel Larrieux
This song is just absolutely beautiful...brings tears to my eyes everytime.
Miss Fat Booty - Mos Def
I know I can't afford to stop...for one moment...
Soul Bossa Nova - Quincy Jones (aka the Austin Powers theme song)
I can see the opening dance sequence now...
The Light - Common Sense
Who doesn't love Common?
Do Your Thing - N*SYNC
I had to put one in here...you just gotta listen to the lyrics.
Pass the Baton to Five People
Regan I know you want too...
Miah so you can update already.
Ciciely just for fun.
Jeffy I know you're bored...
Lil Sis if you're out there!
I got bangs now! Woo hoo!
Okay Cheryll, no more wedding talk...for now =P
Total volume of music files on my computer
I'm gonna go ahead and say 0MB as our computer crashed about 2 weeks ago. I'm sure that there were many music files there, however someone had connected the speakers incorrectly and we didn't figure that out until about 2 months ago. Sad.
The last CD I bought
That's a tough one. I think it's "Now That's What I Call Music, Volume 17." The last CD I "recieved" was Gavin DeGraw's "Chariot." You wanna talk about who fell off the Hip-Hop Wagon...I'm your gal.
Song playing right now
...in reality? Nothing, it's silent.
...in my head? "Behind Those Hazel Eyes" by Kelly Clarkson
Five songs I listen to a lot, or mean a lot to me
Make Me Whole - Amel Larrieux
This song is just absolutely beautiful...brings tears to my eyes everytime.
Miss Fat Booty - Mos Def
I know I can't afford to stop...for one moment...
Soul Bossa Nova - Quincy Jones (aka the Austin Powers theme song)
I can see the opening dance sequence now...
The Light - Common Sense
Who doesn't love Common?
Do Your Thing - N*SYNC
I had to put one in here...you just gotta listen to the lyrics.
Pass the Baton to Five People
Regan I know you want too...
Miah so you can update already.
Ciciely just for fun.
Jeffy I know you're bored...
Lil Sis if you're out there!
I got bangs now! Woo hoo!
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
much ado about nothing
Guess what y'all...it's been 4 weeks since I asked for addresses and THE FREAKIN' LIST IS STILL INCOMPLETE! ARGH! It's so out of my control now...I've stated my feelings and if it gets across, it gets across. I'm through with that. On to more important things like my arts and crafts.
Like everyone else, I'm tainted by the past. I had a boyfriend who lied all the time and led me to trust no one. I had another boyfriend who would talk shit about my sisters and close girlfriends to me, but would be hella fake to their faces. Another boyfriend just fucked with my head for about a year or so. No wonder I'm such a bitch sometimes. Fix it damn it.
I'm like everyone else. Mom and Dad paid for me to go to college and bought me a car (which I later paid off). I live in a 5 bedroom, 3 bathroom house with my fiance. I workout everyday and watch what I eat because I'm not 5'3" and a size 2. I put on pant leg on one leg at a time and take poops on a daily basis. Since I'm so typical...I'm not allowed to have any type of opinion because there is always someone else that has it harder than me. You know what? I don't fucking care. I have what I have and I make do with it. I'm aware of my own personal issues and have addressed them several times with myself.
I need to stop with the coffee in the morning...for real though.
Guess what y'all...it's been 4 weeks since I asked for addresses and THE FREAKIN' LIST IS STILL INCOMPLETE! ARGH! It's so out of my control now...I've stated my feelings and if it gets across, it gets across. I'm through with that. On to more important things like my arts and crafts.
Like everyone else, I'm tainted by the past. I had a boyfriend who lied all the time and led me to trust no one. I had another boyfriend who would talk shit about my sisters and close girlfriends to me, but would be hella fake to their faces. Another boyfriend just fucked with my head for about a year or so. No wonder I'm such a bitch sometimes. Fix it damn it.
I'm like everyone else. Mom and Dad paid for me to go to college and bought me a car (which I later paid off). I live in a 5 bedroom, 3 bathroom house with my fiance. I workout everyday and watch what I eat because I'm not 5'3" and a size 2. I put on pant leg on one leg at a time and take poops on a daily basis. Since I'm so typical...I'm not allowed to have any type of opinion because there is always someone else that has it harder than me. You know what? I don't fucking care. I have what I have and I make do with it. I'm aware of my own personal issues and have addressed them several times with myself.
I need to stop with the coffee in the morning...for real though.
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
help wanted
I bought these special blister band aids and I'm not really sure if they're doing what there supposed to be doing...whatever that may be. Just another battle scar from B2B. Can't wait until next year...
<begin bridezilla rant>I wish that my bridesmaids would just pick a fucking dress and order it already. I want them to do that this month, but it's hard getting a mother of 2 and 3 other girls that hve busy weekends together. I hate the way my sister acts when we do these wedding things. She's so impatient sometimes. <end bridezilla rant>
Vegas in October though! Yay Bachelorette weekend!
I feel sorry for some people because they truly believe that they are strong, when the reality of it all is that no one is. Some may be stronger than others, but not strong enough to stand on their own. Everybody needs somebody.
I bought these special blister band aids and I'm not really sure if they're doing what there supposed to be doing...whatever that may be. Just another battle scar from B2B. Can't wait until next year...
<begin bridezilla rant>I wish that my bridesmaids would just pick a fucking dress and order it already. I want them to do that this month, but it's hard getting a mother of 2 and 3 other girls that hve busy weekends together. I hate the way my sister acts when we do these wedding things. She's so impatient sometimes. <end bridezilla rant>
Vegas in October though! Yay Bachelorette weekend!
I feel sorry for some people because they truly believe that they are strong, when the reality of it all is that no one is. Some may be stronger than others, but not strong enough to stand on their own. Everybody needs somebody.
Monday, May 16, 2005
blister
What an exciting weekend filled with Sake Bombs, Jumpers, Spitting on Cakes, Blisters, Steak and Lobsters.
Friday night, went to Miyake's in Palo Alto and saw the REEGSTA himself, live and in the flesh. It was good seeing you and V-May too dawg...your sister also looks a lot like you! After departing to Mountain House with a drunk fiance, listened to him talk about his dog Suzy and a drunk dial message he left on my cell phone while we were in the car.
Saturday morning, up bright and early for an hour workout on the elliptical. Listened to Byron's message on my cell phone and had a good laugh (he listened to it too), then headed off to City Beach for Royceeboy's birthday. Had lots of fun in the jumpers and slides. While trying to blow out the candles, Royce spit on his cake. Not to worry though, my sister took that part of the icing off and threw it away. There were 1216 Skittles in the jar and I guessed 1250.
Saturday night, watched the A's get their asses served to them on a platter by the Yankees. Also saw a brawl on the third deck, which almost resulted in dude falling off the railing. Garlic fries and Skittles (which I won at the birthday party) galore.
Sunday morning, up at the ass crack of dawn to head off to Bay 2 Breakers. Walked 7+ miles, heard Gavin DeGraw in concert and now have a blister the size of a small grape on my right ring toe. Ended the night with a Steak & Lobster meal from Black Angusand complimentary leg and foot massage (thanks babe), then slept for 12+ hours until this morning.
Hopefully next weekend won't be so tiring...
What an exciting weekend filled with Sake Bombs, Jumpers, Spitting on Cakes, Blisters, Steak and Lobsters.
Friday night, went to Miyake's in Palo Alto and saw the REEGSTA himself, live and in the flesh. It was good seeing you and V-May too dawg...your sister also looks a lot like you! After departing to Mountain House with a drunk fiance, listened to him talk about his dog Suzy and a drunk dial message he left on my cell phone while we were in the car.
Saturday morning, up bright and early for an hour workout on the elliptical. Listened to Byron's message on my cell phone and had a good laugh (he listened to it too), then headed off to City Beach for Royceeboy's birthday. Had lots of fun in the jumpers and slides. While trying to blow out the candles, Royce spit on his cake. Not to worry though, my sister took that part of the icing off and threw it away. There were 1216 Skittles in the jar and I guessed 1250.
Saturday night, watched the A's get their asses served to them on a platter by the Yankees. Also saw a brawl on the third deck, which almost resulted in dude falling off the railing. Garlic fries and Skittles (which I won at the birthday party) galore.
Sunday morning, up at the ass crack of dawn to head off to Bay 2 Breakers. Walked 7+ miles, heard Gavin DeGraw in concert and now have a blister the size of a small grape on my right ring toe. Ended the night with a Steak & Lobster meal from Black Angusand complimentary leg and foot massage (thanks babe), then slept for 12+ hours until this morning.
Hopefully next weekend won't be so tiring...
Friday, May 13, 2005
"I'm FULL!"
Those Taco Bell commercials are cheesy...but my favorite one is the guy in the interrogation room and they turn on the light on the other side of the mirror...and capitan is eating a burrito. I tend to amuse easily as most of you know...
Today is "Free Lunch Friday" meaning that I don't bring my lunch from home because I'm going to be fed by someone else. Normally, my boss and his wife would take me out to a restaurant, but my boss has been "under the weather" this week. So, his wife bought a lasagna from Trader Joe's and some Costco sushi to share with me. They're so nice. I love it here.
Tomorrow is Royceeboy's 2nd birthday party at City Beach, which yours truly has to pick up balloons at Party America for, then the A's & Yankees at night. Man, I hope they win because the teams I've been watching lately have lost. I need them winners so I know that I'm not a bad luck charm.
It's Friday the 13th...and I dropped hella brand names in this post. Word.
Those Taco Bell commercials are cheesy...but my favorite one is the guy in the interrogation room and they turn on the light on the other side of the mirror...and capitan is eating a burrito. I tend to amuse easily as most of you know...
Today is "Free Lunch Friday" meaning that I don't bring my lunch from home because I'm going to be fed by someone else. Normally, my boss and his wife would take me out to a restaurant, but my boss has been "under the weather" this week. So, his wife bought a lasagna from Trader Joe's and some Costco sushi to share with me. They're so nice. I love it here.
Tomorrow is Royceeboy's 2nd birthday party at City Beach, which yours truly has to pick up balloons at Party America for, then the A's & Yankees at night. Man, I hope they win because the teams I've been watching lately have lost. I need them winners so I know that I'm not a bad luck charm.
It's Friday the 13th...and I dropped hella brand names in this post. Word.
Thursday, May 12, 2005
nesting
I had a pretty uneventful morning here at work and for some reason I decided to reorganize everything. My boss went to a doctor's appointment, so I cleaned for a good hour straight..and the funny part is, my boss' pregnant wife was in his office and she was cleaning too!
I'm deciding on whether or not I should have a second cup of coffee. I can feel my eyes bugging out already...yeah, I think I'll have a second cup.
I've been stumbling on other people's xangas/blogs and I tell you, I noticed that there are a lot of young mothers out there. I always thought that I would be, but now that I'm 25 about to be married at 26, would I still qualify as a young mother? I would like to have my kids before I'm 30 though...maybe this time next year I'll be a momma or a momma-to-be.
I've wished for a kid for so long, but when I think of how I was when I was growing up...goddamn, I give my parents much props for raising me. I think that through junior high to the first couple years of high school, I was my parent's problem child, but I make up for it now. I see how fast my niece and nephew are growing up and my mind just fills with all these thoughts. I don't know what kind of parents Byron and I are going to be...but I'm happy that I won't be going through it by myself.
I had a pretty uneventful morning here at work and for some reason I decided to reorganize everything. My boss went to a doctor's appointment, so I cleaned for a good hour straight..and the funny part is, my boss' pregnant wife was in his office and she was cleaning too!
I'm deciding on whether or not I should have a second cup of coffee. I can feel my eyes bugging out already...yeah, I think I'll have a second cup.
I've been stumbling on other people's xangas/blogs and I tell you, I noticed that there are a lot of young mothers out there. I always thought that I would be, but now that I'm 25 about to be married at 26, would I still qualify as a young mother? I would like to have my kids before I'm 30 though...maybe this time next year I'll be a momma or a momma-to-be.
I've wished for a kid for so long, but when I think of how I was when I was growing up...goddamn, I give my parents much props for raising me. I think that through junior high to the first couple years of high school, I was my parent's problem child, but I make up for it now. I see how fast my niece and nephew are growing up and my mind just fills with all these thoughts. I don't know what kind of parents Byron and I are going to be...but I'm happy that I won't be going through it by myself.
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
love actually
I'm so glad that there is someone out there (Mrs. Aure) who knows exactly what I'm going through with this madness also known as wedding planning. At least I know that even though we may not be able to physically be there for each other to help with centerpieces, favors, and invites (although I'm only a phone call away if you need me), there is some I can call to bitch about our significant others and the in-laws to. That's what I call true friendship.
I finally got an email from my mom regarding the barongs. My "auntie" in the Philippines finally responded to my mom and will be emailing me soon. Anyone know what the difference is between Jusi and Pina cloth besides the price? Hook a pinay bride up...
I didn't realize how close graduation was. In one month, Byron's youngest brother will be walking the stage (but he finished in March). I ordered a Ti Leaf and Orchid Lei for the occasion. My favorite. I hope he likes it.
Save-the-dates went out. Guest list count as of May 9, 2005 : 296
Holy guacamole...
I'm so glad that there is someone out there (Mrs. Aure) who knows exactly what I'm going through with this madness also known as wedding planning. At least I know that even though we may not be able to physically be there for each other to help with centerpieces, favors, and invites (although I'm only a phone call away if you need me), there is some I can call to bitch about our significant others and the in-laws to. That's what I call true friendship.
I finally got an email from my mom regarding the barongs. My "auntie" in the Philippines finally responded to my mom and will be emailing me soon. Anyone know what the difference is between Jusi and Pina cloth besides the price? Hook a pinay bride up...
I didn't realize how close graduation was. In one month, Byron's youngest brother will be walking the stage (but he finished in March). I ordered a Ti Leaf and Orchid Lei for the occasion. My favorite. I hope he likes it.
Save-the-dates went out. Guest list count as of May 9, 2005 : 296
Holy guacamole...
Monday, May 09, 2005
Oriental vs. Asian
I remember when I was in SB my last 6 months, I had a job teaching colorguard to a nearby high school. SB is predominantly white, so I was teaching a bunch of white high school girls. I got into this conversation regarding the use of Oriental vs Asian.
white girl #1: "So like, since you're Filipino, are you like Oriental?"
me: "Um, no. Filipinos are actually considered Pacific Islander. But the term 'Oriental' should only be used for items, the term 'Asian' should be used for people."
white girl #2: "I don't get it. What's the difference?"
me: " The term 'Oriental' is derived from what the West, meaning Europe and the Americas would refer to as 'the Orient.' What many people don't know is that 'the Orient' was actually anything outside of the Occident (Europe & the Americas). It just so happened that most of their trading was done in Asia."
white girl #1: (confused) "I don't get it."
me: "Just don't use the word 'Oriental' anymore. I consider it racist."
white girl #2: "Okay, we won't."
I've spent 24 hours eating "Oriental" food...yesterday dim sum for lunch, thai food for dinner and today for lunch chinese. Yum. I wonder what's for dinner.
I remember when I was in SB my last 6 months, I had a job teaching colorguard to a nearby high school. SB is predominantly white, so I was teaching a bunch of white high school girls. I got into this conversation regarding the use of Oriental vs Asian.
white girl #1: "So like, since you're Filipino, are you like Oriental?"
me: "Um, no. Filipinos are actually considered Pacific Islander. But the term 'Oriental' should only be used for items, the term 'Asian' should be used for people."
white girl #2: "I don't get it. What's the difference?"
me: " The term 'Oriental' is derived from what the West, meaning Europe and the Americas would refer to as 'the Orient.' What many people don't know is that 'the Orient' was actually anything outside of the Occident (Europe & the Americas). It just so happened that most of their trading was done in Asia."
white girl #1: (confused) "I don't get it."
me: "Just don't use the word 'Oriental' anymore. I consider it racist."
white girl #2: "Okay, we won't."
I've spent 24 hours eating "Oriental" food...yesterday dim sum for lunch, thai food for dinner and today for lunch chinese. Yum. I wonder what's for dinner.
Friday, May 06, 2005
label whores
I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one who noticed?
I can't be the only one who's learned
- Gavin DeGraw, "I Don't Wanna Be"
I think I'm past this "quarter life crisis" everyone kept talking about (even me if you read my old posts). I can't say that I've chosen my life path and that I know exactly where I'm going (who really does anyway?), it's just that now I'm content with the way things are now. Wedding planning and stress aside, I'm truly happy. So what if I'm not keeping my last name, so what if people refer to me as "Mrs. Evangelista" or "Byron's Wife" or "The Old Ball and Chain." I'm comfortable in myself and my identity to know that it shouldn't affect me...and bottom line is that it doesn't.
Put a label on that, BIOTCH!
I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one who noticed?
I can't be the only one who's learned
- Gavin DeGraw, "I Don't Wanna Be"
I think I'm past this "quarter life crisis" everyone kept talking about (even me if you read my old posts). I can't say that I've chosen my life path and that I know exactly where I'm going (who really does anyway?), it's just that now I'm content with the way things are now. Wedding planning and stress aside, I'm truly happy. So what if I'm not keeping my last name, so what if people refer to me as "Mrs. Evangelista" or "Byron's Wife" or "The Old Ball and Chain." I'm comfortable in myself and my identity to know that it shouldn't affect me...and bottom line is that it doesn't.
Put a label on that, BIOTCH!
Thursday, May 05, 2005
this shit is bananas
B-A-N-A-N-A-S
6 months 'til the wedding. 6 months of planning and coordinating stress. 6 months left of being a Soria. 6 months of arts and crafts. 6 months of bridal party "get togethers." 6 months to find barongs and places that will custom dye. 6 months to make a music video. 6 months to select pictures for montage. 6 months 'til I have in-laws.
6 months until I become someone's wife.
B-A-N-A-N-A-S
6 months 'til the wedding. 6 months of planning and coordinating stress. 6 months left of being a Soria. 6 months of arts and crafts. 6 months of bridal party "get togethers." 6 months to find barongs and places that will custom dye. 6 months to make a music video. 6 months to select pictures for montage. 6 months 'til I have in-laws.
6 months until I become someone's wife.
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
points
Lately, everything I eat has been governed by points. I'm on that diet plan where all my servings have a point value. For example, I eat Yoplait Light Yogurt, one large banana, and a 100 calorie pack of Honey Maid Thin Crisps. This totals to be about 6 points. I am allowed 24 points a day for proper weight loss. I have also been on the elliptical trainer for 30 minutes at least 5 times a week, which add about 2 points to my day (but I don't really use them unless I absolutely have to). I've lost 12 pounds so far...but my grandma (actually, her sister) told me that I need to lose more.
DUH! My wedding dress calls for it!
I can't believe tomorrow is exactly 6 months from the wedding. 6 MONTHS! Better get back to work!
Lately, everything I eat has been governed by points. I'm on that diet plan where all my servings have a point value. For example, I eat Yoplait Light Yogurt, one large banana, and a 100 calorie pack of Honey Maid Thin Crisps. This totals to be about 6 points. I am allowed 24 points a day for proper weight loss. I have also been on the elliptical trainer for 30 minutes at least 5 times a week, which add about 2 points to my day (but I don't really use them unless I absolutely have to). I've lost 12 pounds so far...but my grandma (actually, her sister) told me that I need to lose more.
DUH! My wedding dress calls for it!
I can't believe tomorrow is exactly 6 months from the wedding. 6 MONTHS! Better get back to work!
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
wrong side of the bed
WARNING: If ever you are sleeping in the same room as me, NEVER try to wake me up with tickling or shaking. Please be advised, you will find that (a) I am not a morning person, (b) I will not think it is funny and (c) I may rip your head off.
It's like those times when your mom would tell you, "Your not gonna stop until somebody gets hurt!" But whatever...I'm over it. I just hate to have sleep cut short and wake up when I'm not ready to wake up.
People whine too damn much. It's called transferrence. Maybe the issue is with your dad and not the men you meet.
WARNING: If ever you are sleeping in the same room as me, NEVER try to wake me up with tickling or shaking. Please be advised, you will find that (a) I am not a morning person, (b) I will not think it is funny and (c) I may rip your head off.
It's like those times when your mom would tell you, "Your not gonna stop until somebody gets hurt!" But whatever...I'm over it. I just hate to have sleep cut short and wake up when I'm not ready to wake up.
People whine too damn much. It's called transferrence. Maybe the issue is with your dad and not the men you meet.
Monday, May 02, 2005
just like Grandma used to make...
Pinakbet: A mixture of vegetables that include:
bittermelon, eggplant, and squash
Which Filipino Food Are You?
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Now I'm all hungry...shit.
Pinakbet: A mixture of vegetables that include:
bittermelon, eggplant, and squash
Which Filipino Food Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
Now I'm all hungry...shit.
Friday, April 29, 2005
Preschool
If you give a mouse a cookie, especially a chocolate chip one, would it kill it? I mean, if you give a dog chocolate, it's bad right? Wouldn't it be the same for a mouse?
I don't think I would eat green eggs and ham. Doesn't green = mold = sick for days? No thanks, Sam.
Them Bernstein bears always be gettin' themselves into some shit. Especially the boy one and when he's with his cousin.
What the hell did Courdoroy need that pocket for anyway? My concern would be the bear coming to life.
The Get Along gang was the shit.
Happy Friday Everyone!
If you give a mouse a cookie, especially a chocolate chip one, would it kill it? I mean, if you give a dog chocolate, it's bad right? Wouldn't it be the same for a mouse?
I don't think I would eat green eggs and ham. Doesn't green = mold = sick for days? No thanks, Sam.
Them Bernstein bears always be gettin' themselves into some shit. Especially the boy one and when he's with his cousin.
What the hell did Courdoroy need that pocket for anyway? My concern would be the bear coming to life.
The Get Along gang was the shit.
Happy Friday Everyone!
Thursday, April 28, 2005
rain, go away
Instant Traffic...just add water.
Have I mentioned that Walnut Creek has a very large population of old people? Yeah...and it seems like they're on the road all the fucking time.
I suppose I should go to the post office today and buy some stamps. Those save-the-date cards aren't going to mail themselves.
The cool thing about TiVo is that you can record your fave programs to watch at a later time. What is not cool is that you recorded a results show (i.e. American Idol) and have yet to watch it...but people on the radio are blabbin' out who was kicked off. Talk about your spoilers.
I bought some sugar-free chocolate yesterday. It's actually not that bad and I don't feel guilty about eating it.
Note to self: glass of milk and yogurt in the morning, slice of cheese and several pieces of sugar free chocolate does not make for a pleasant evening.
Instant Traffic...just add water.
Have I mentioned that Walnut Creek has a very large population of old people? Yeah...and it seems like they're on the road all the fucking time.
I suppose I should go to the post office today and buy some stamps. Those save-the-date cards aren't going to mail themselves.
The cool thing about TiVo is that you can record your fave programs to watch at a later time. What is not cool is that you recorded a results show (i.e. American Idol) and have yet to watch it...but people on the radio are blabbin' out who was kicked off. Talk about your spoilers.
I bought some sugar-free chocolate yesterday. It's actually not that bad and I don't feel guilty about eating it.
Note to self: glass of milk and yogurt in the morning, slice of cheese and several pieces of sugar free chocolate does not make for a pleasant evening.
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
stir it up
I got my "I Heart Byron" T-shirt yesterday. I thought it was a baby tee for some reason and ordered it in large, but it turned out to be a regular size shirt. Oh well...it's the thought that counts.
This past weekend we had a get together with our families and bridal party. It was cool just hanging out, eating, stuffing envelopes with save-the-date stuff and admiring my artistic abilities. Byron's mom made her list of people to invite...and the list was 100+ people. All I have to say to that is "snip, snip."
Because of this, I apologize in advance to the people who are assuming that they are invited to the wedding. I quickly learned that weddings are quite expensive and that Byron and I combined have a lot of family.
I got my tax return last week and it's already spoken for. Luckily, I get paid next week. Not so luckily, that's already spoken for too. I just cannot win.
Some people should really think before talking.
I got my "I Heart Byron" T-shirt yesterday. I thought it was a baby tee for some reason and ordered it in large, but it turned out to be a regular size shirt. Oh well...it's the thought that counts.
This past weekend we had a get together with our families and bridal party. It was cool just hanging out, eating, stuffing envelopes with save-the-date stuff and admiring my artistic abilities. Byron's mom made her list of people to invite...and the list was 100+ people. All I have to say to that is "snip, snip."
Because of this, I apologize in advance to the people who are assuming that they are invited to the wedding. I quickly learned that weddings are quite expensive and that Byron and I combined have a lot of family.
I got my tax return last week and it's already spoken for. Luckily, I get paid next week. Not so luckily, that's already spoken for too. I just cannot win.
Some people should really think before talking.
Friday, April 22, 2005
long week
Happy 82rd Birthday Grandma!
It has been a very busy week for yours truly. I would like to, if I may, pat myself on the back because out of the 5 work days this week, I was successfully able to wake up at 545 am and work out for 4 of them before work. For those that know me well, you know that I love me some sleep. I love sleep so much that my last 2 quarters at the University of Casual Sex & Beer, I never had a class before 2 pm...and still never made it there. Sad.
We went to Byron's aunt's funeral on Wednesday. Byron's mom introduced me to a lot of family. I'm actually starting to feel like an Evangelista.
That same night, things happened that resulted in Byron falling asleep and me crying. We're okay now.
Did you know that you can custom print on M&Ms? I think that is the coolest thing!
Cingular sucks because I had a voicemail on my phone and couldn't access it 'til yesterday.
Save-the-date magnets wer shipped on Wednesday. Now if only I could get my I heart Byron shirt so I can wear it on Sunday...
Happy 82rd Birthday Grandma!
It has been a very busy week for yours truly. I would like to, if I may, pat myself on the back because out of the 5 work days this week, I was successfully able to wake up at 545 am and work out for 4 of them before work. For those that know me well, you know that I love me some sleep. I love sleep so much that my last 2 quarters at the University of Casual Sex & Beer, I never had a class before 2 pm...and still never made it there. Sad.
We went to Byron's aunt's funeral on Wednesday. Byron's mom introduced me to a lot of family. I'm actually starting to feel like an Evangelista.
That same night, things happened that resulted in Byron falling asleep and me crying. We're okay now.
Did you know that you can custom print on M&Ms? I think that is the coolest thing!
Cingular sucks because I had a voicemail on my phone and couldn't access it 'til yesterday.
Save-the-date magnets wer shipped on Wednesday. Now if only I could get my I heart Byron shirt so I can wear it on Sunday...
Monday, April 18, 2005
release
One toilet to another toilet: I've been taking crap from everyone today. What a shitty day.
I've noticed that when I use the facilities here at work, there are times when the toilet seat is up. I have to say that I'm used to putting the toilet seat down at my own or my parent's house...but in the women's bathroom? I also noticed that the seats are up when there are Russian's using the toilet (I'm not racist, a lot work here), so is it a Russian thing?
Something to think about.
Being an adult sucks. I wish I could have my parents pay for stuff.
One toilet to another toilet: I've been taking crap from everyone today. What a shitty day.
I've noticed that when I use the facilities here at work, there are times when the toilet seat is up. I have to say that I'm used to putting the toilet seat down at my own or my parent's house...but in the women's bathroom? I also noticed that the seats are up when there are Russian's using the toilet (I'm not racist, a lot work here), so is it a Russian thing?
Something to think about.
Being an adult sucks. I wish I could have my parents pay for stuff.
Friday, April 15, 2005
baby talk
What I love about Sabercat Friday nights is that I can go to Union City to spend some QT with my little shining stars, Taryn & Royce. Taryn is a full fledged little girl now with that 5 going on 13 attitude and Royce is at that copying stage, so you really have to watch what you say in front of him. I need to find some kind of office store to make our inserts for our save-the date mailings. I'm going to print those out at my parents house because they have a really nice printer.
Byron and I made the decision to become pregnant in 2006. Surprisingly, he was the one that brought it up.
I was really upset about Byron's purchasing decisions as of late and was upset for most of the night. Then we got a phone call from his mom only to find out that one of his aunts had an annuerism (sp?) this week. She is now brain dead and they are pulling her from life support this weekend.
Life is too short to wait for the inevitable.
What I love about Sabercat Friday nights is that I can go to Union City to spend some QT with my little shining stars, Taryn & Royce. Taryn is a full fledged little girl now with that 5 going on 13 attitude and Royce is at that copying stage, so you really have to watch what you say in front of him. I need to find some kind of office store to make our inserts for our save-the date mailings. I'm going to print those out at my parents house because they have a really nice printer.
Byron and I made the decision to become pregnant in 2006. Surprisingly, he was the one that brought it up.
I was really upset about Byron's purchasing decisions as of late and was upset for most of the night. Then we got a phone call from his mom only to find out that one of his aunts had an annuerism (sp?) this week. She is now brain dead and they are pulling her from life support this weekend.
Life is too short to wait for the inevitable.
Thursday, April 14, 2005
sacrifice
Have you ever had a conversation on the phone with someone and wanted to stick your hand in the reciever and strangle them?
I felt that way today, except I wanted to do it over email.
SOMEONE who I have been sharing my life with for the past 2 years advised that he had recently purchased maple cabinets for the garage. This same SOMEONE also gave me a long winded speech a few days after becoming engaged about how we should not make extraneous purchases as we are footing most of the wedding bill ourselves.
I'm just frustrated because we're supposed to be in this, all of this, together.
Have you ever had a conversation on the phone with someone and wanted to stick your hand in the reciever and strangle them?
I felt that way today, except I wanted to do it over email.
SOMEONE who I have been sharing my life with for the past 2 years advised that he had recently purchased maple cabinets for the garage. This same SOMEONE also gave me a long winded speech a few days after becoming engaged about how we should not make extraneous purchases as we are footing most of the wedding bill ourselves.
I'm just frustrated because we're supposed to be in this, all of this, together.
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
eye of the tiger
I've been having some skin issues lately right next to my right eye. It's like dry and flaky, but that's what I get for rubbing my eyes right? Do you know why girls rub their eyes in the morning? Because they have no balls to scratch! HAHA...that was a really old joke that I had to share with everyone.
We haven't hit the 6 month mark yet and we have almost all of our vendors set. Deposits are paid and contracts are signed...woohoo! I feel like I should be doing stuff like making centerpieces and favors and what-not. There's still so much to do...I don't want to run out of time...
sidenote: You know that FRIENDS episode where Monica tries on Emily's dress, then both her and Phoebe are having this grand old time in wedding dresses in Monica's apartment? I TOTALLY know how that feels now. I want to be sitting at work, wearing my dress because that dress makes me feel so beautiful.
I've been having some skin issues lately right next to my right eye. It's like dry and flaky, but that's what I get for rubbing my eyes right? Do you know why girls rub their eyes in the morning? Because they have no balls to scratch! HAHA...that was a really old joke that I had to share with everyone.
We haven't hit the 6 month mark yet and we have almost all of our vendors set. Deposits are paid and contracts are signed...woohoo! I feel like I should be doing stuff like making centerpieces and favors and what-not. There's still so much to do...I don't want to run out of time...
sidenote: You know that FRIENDS episode where Monica tries on Emily's dress, then both her and Phoebe are having this grand old time in wedding dresses in Monica's apartment? I TOTALLY know how that feels now. I want to be sitting at work, wearing my dress because that dress makes me feel so beautiful.
Sunday, April 10, 2005
finding "the one"
I found my dress! It's so beautiful! I went dress shopping today with my mom and my bitches (aka bridesmaids, haha) and the 3rd dress I tried on was absolutely the perfect dress. It wasn't too heavy or intricate...it was perfect! And totally not the style of dress I thought I was going to get! Yay wedding!
I found my dress! It's so beautiful! I went dress shopping today with my mom and my bitches (aka bridesmaids, haha) and the 3rd dress I tried on was absolutely the perfect dress. It wasn't too heavy or intricate...it was perfect! And totally not the style of dress I thought I was going to get! Yay wedding!
Friday, April 08, 2005
all growed up
I was reading through some of my old posts today...and I believe that I've evolved somewhat. I would talk about how I thought Byron was the one, blah, blah...then it turned to I want to have kids and get married, blah, blah...and now I talk about actually planning a wedding. It's weird to see where you've been in comparison to where you are now.
I was reading through some of my old posts today...and I believe that I've evolved somewhat. I would talk about how I thought Byron was the one, blah, blah...then it turned to I want to have kids and get married, blah, blah...and now I talk about actually planning a wedding. It's weird to see where you've been in comparison to where you are now.
Thursday, April 07, 2005
to eat...or not to eat
Something in my brain keeps telling me to call and order mongolian beef from the chinese restaurant over here.
Some things are easier felt than explained, which is what I found while I was talking to Byron on the phone today. He asked me what was wrong and I said nothing. We've been together long enough that he knows that nothing means something. I'm at a loss for words, so I just tell him that I don't want to get into it. This week has been great in terms of getting ideas for the wedding and what not, but not so great in the planning of it all.
I'm gonna eat my sandwich now.
Something in my brain keeps telling me to call and order mongolian beef from the chinese restaurant over here.
Some things are easier felt than explained, which is what I found while I was talking to Byron on the phone today. He asked me what was wrong and I said nothing. We've been together long enough that he knows that nothing means something. I'm at a loss for words, so I just tell him that I don't want to get into it. This week has been great in terms of getting ideas for the wedding and what not, but not so great in the planning of it all.
I'm gonna eat my sandwich now.
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
oh...it's so quiet!
That Bjork song reminds my of 2 things: Colorguard and Happy Texas.
I've been looking into honeymoons in Tahiti and Bora Bora. It is so beautiful there! I can't seem to find my passport though...uh oh.
I took some Nyquil last night because my allergies where kicking my ass. I didn't know this at the time, but it's actually possible to hallucinate in your sleep.
I've compiled a list of "first dance" songs and have printed out about 10 pictures of possible wedding dresses. See what happens when your boss is gone for the week?
I ain't no holla back girl!
That Bjork song reminds my of 2 things: Colorguard and Happy Texas.
I've been looking into honeymoons in Tahiti and Bora Bora. It is so beautiful there! I can't seem to find my passport though...uh oh.
I took some Nyquil last night because my allergies where kicking my ass. I didn't know this at the time, but it's actually possible to hallucinate in your sleep.
I've compiled a list of "first dance" songs and have printed out about 10 pictures of possible wedding dresses. See what happens when your boss is gone for the week?
I ain't no holla back girl!
Monday, April 04, 2005
a series of unfortunate events
RIP to Pope John Paull II. I'm not a devout Catholic, but I can honestly say that he's the only Pope I've ever known.
Is it bad that I relish in the misfortune of others, especially when the outcome is in my favor?
Nothing confirms your weight gain like your future mother-in-law handing you a 15-day diet.
Wedding dresses...here I come!
RIP to Pope John Paull II. I'm not a devout Catholic, but I can honestly say that he's the only Pope I've ever known.
Is it bad that I relish in the misfortune of others, especially when the outcome is in my favor?
Nothing confirms your weight gain like your future mother-in-law handing you a 15-day diet.
Wedding dresses...here I come!
Thursday, March 31, 2005
Serial Randomness
-The celebration of Jesus being risen has liberated me...I can eat rice again.
-I ate some Cali Rolls yesterday for dinner and it had sesame seeds in it. I know that I chewed them up real good too. I took a poop this morning and the sesame seeds were still in tact! Damn, just like corn. Why does that happen?
-When you need it, you can't find it. But when it's useless, it's everywhere.
-I remember in the 4th grade I had a project in which I had to creat a recipe including chocolate. Honey + Peanut Butter, sandwiched in between 2 Graham Crackers, then covered in melted Milk Chocolate = the After School Special.
-When 1pm rolls around, I never know what I want for lunch. Oh, look what time it is and guess who doesn't know what they're having for lunch.
-I must, I must, I must increase my...workout time?
-Does anyone want to buy me the "Jersey Trilogy" on DVD? I already have it on VHS. Too bad I don't have a VCR.
-While looking through myspace.com, I've noticed that my brother's middle/high school friends are all getting drunk in Vegas and complaining that they're not 21 anymore. Not 21 anymore? When did y'all even turn 18?
-Happy Birthday Nelson!
-The celebration of Jesus being risen has liberated me...I can eat rice again.
-I ate some Cali Rolls yesterday for dinner and it had sesame seeds in it. I know that I chewed them up real good too. I took a poop this morning and the sesame seeds were still in tact! Damn, just like corn. Why does that happen?
-When you need it, you can't find it. But when it's useless, it's everywhere.
-I remember in the 4th grade I had a project in which I had to creat a recipe including chocolate. Honey + Peanut Butter, sandwiched in between 2 Graham Crackers, then covered in melted Milk Chocolate = the After School Special.
-When 1pm rolls around, I never know what I want for lunch. Oh, look what time it is and guess who doesn't know what they're having for lunch.
-I must, I must, I must increase my...workout time?
-Does anyone want to buy me the "Jersey Trilogy" on DVD? I already have it on VHS. Too bad I don't have a VCR.
-While looking through myspace.com, I've noticed that my brother's middle/high school friends are all getting drunk in Vegas and complaining that they're not 21 anymore. Not 21 anymore? When did y'all even turn 18?
-Happy Birthday Nelson!
Monday, March 28, 2005
Thursday, March 24, 2005
stupid is...as stupid does
I checked the office messages when I got into work this morning and there was this woman on the phone that made a big stink about the recruiting emails that I send out. Personally, if I am recieving emails that I don't want I either (a) delete them, (b) email the sender to be removed or (c) block the email address. All three options take about 5 seconds tops, but this bitch, feeling all righteous and shit, starts goin' off about how she's a "director of HR" and earns $187,000/yr not including bonuses and she doesn't have to sell anything. Well, tell me this, why is your greedy ass posting your resume? She wasted 3 minutes just for that message. I tell you...there are just some people in this world that prefer to make it difficult ALL THE TIME.
I checked the office messages when I got into work this morning and there was this woman on the phone that made a big stink about the recruiting emails that I send out. Personally, if I am recieving emails that I don't want I either (a) delete them, (b) email the sender to be removed or (c) block the email address. All three options take about 5 seconds tops, but this bitch, feeling all righteous and shit, starts goin' off about how she's a "director of HR" and earns $187,000/yr not including bonuses and she doesn't have to sell anything. Well, tell me this, why is your greedy ass posting your resume? She wasted 3 minutes just for that message. I tell you...there are just some people in this world that prefer to make it difficult ALL THE TIME.
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Hump Day
I remember at UCSB they used to have these performances at the Hub in the UCen every Wednesday night. They would have all these food/beer specials to encourage students to come and "get over the hump." I never went to these things, but I'd always see those table tents everytime I went to the UCen. Everytime someone says something about hump day...I would always think of that...weird.
I always wondered about this part of my life when I was in college. I wondered what kind of job I would have, where I would live and who I would marry. It just seemed so foreign to me. There were even times when I thought that nothing was going to happen at all. My job now is okay. I'm not going to say I like it or that I don't because I really don't feel anything about a job or work in general. Mountain House is far when you're driving home alone at night, but I highly recommend that you live with the person you're going to marry BEFORE you say "I do."
I've learned so much, but there's still so much more...
I remember at UCSB they used to have these performances at the Hub in the UCen every Wednesday night. They would have all these food/beer specials to encourage students to come and "get over the hump." I never went to these things, but I'd always see those table tents everytime I went to the UCen. Everytime someone says something about hump day...I would always think of that...weird.
I always wondered about this part of my life when I was in college. I wondered what kind of job I would have, where I would live and who I would marry. It just seemed so foreign to me. There were even times when I thought that nothing was going to happen at all. My job now is okay. I'm not going to say I like it or that I don't because I really don't feel anything about a job or work in general. Mountain House is far when you're driving home alone at night, but I highly recommend that you live with the person you're going to marry BEFORE you say "I do."
I've learned so much, but there's still so much more...
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
weight loss
I said it before and I'll say it again...weight loss is a 24 hour job. Props to them celebs that have can lose 20 pounds in 2 weeks for a film and gain 40 for another. Seems unhealthy no?
I had some Mongolian Beef for lunch today and it was hella good except they didn't have those noodles on the bottom like other places. Oh well.
I can't believe that it rained the whole work day. It was a bitch getting around at lunch because of it (not too mention the plethora of stupid drivers already on the road).
It's quittin' time y'all...catch ya on the flip side...
I said it before and I'll say it again...weight loss is a 24 hour job. Props to them celebs that have can lose 20 pounds in 2 weeks for a film and gain 40 for another. Seems unhealthy no?
I had some Mongolian Beef for lunch today and it was hella good except they didn't have those noodles on the bottom like other places. Oh well.
I can't believe that it rained the whole work day. It was a bitch getting around at lunch because of it (not too mention the plethora of stupid drivers already on the road).
It's quittin' time y'all...catch ya on the flip side...
Thursday, March 17, 2005
St. Patrick's Day
Wedding countdown: 8 months, 19 days
I, for one, have never really celebrated this "holiday" with much fervor, although I am wearing a pale green shirt so as to ward off those who pinch.
I have those days when I just kind of want to write what I want without thinking about saying too much since I truly believe that there aren't very many people out there that read this thing. I also believe that I have an image to maintain, so I will be as cryptic as possible while still getting my point across (and maybe, if I am so lucky) offend some people in the process.
Lately I've been feeling very...emotional...almost overreactive...to Byron lately. I don't know if it's the fact that I just started a fresh pack of pills, my UTI 2 weeks ago, or the "excitement" of all the wedding planning, but it's definitely something. Right before we went to sleep, Byron noticed all the bills I pay on top of the computer. He said something about me ruining his credit because they weren't sent out yet and I just went off on him. He did apologize for the insensitive comment because of previous conversations regarding my feelings on living there, but I really think that I overreacted. I admit it. I OVERREACTED. Women don't normally admit this, so this is a big step for me.
I think that lately I've been putting our relationship under the microscope because we're going to be spending the rest of our lives together.
It's been almost 3 months and I still don't regret saying yes.
Wedding countdown: 8 months, 19 days
I, for one, have never really celebrated this "holiday" with much fervor, although I am wearing a pale green shirt so as to ward off those who pinch.
I have those days when I just kind of want to write what I want without thinking about saying too much since I truly believe that there aren't very many people out there that read this thing. I also believe that I have an image to maintain, so I will be as cryptic as possible while still getting my point across (and maybe, if I am so lucky) offend some people in the process.
Lately I've been feeling very...emotional...almost overreactive...to Byron lately. I don't know if it's the fact that I just started a fresh pack of pills, my UTI 2 weeks ago, or the "excitement" of all the wedding planning, but it's definitely something. Right before we went to sleep, Byron noticed all the bills I pay on top of the computer. He said something about me ruining his credit because they weren't sent out yet and I just went off on him. He did apologize for the insensitive comment because of previous conversations regarding my feelings on living there, but I really think that I overreacted. I admit it. I OVERREACTED. Women don't normally admit this, so this is a big step for me.
I think that lately I've been putting our relationship under the microscope because we're going to be spending the rest of our lives together.
It's been almost 3 months and I still don't regret saying yes.
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
too much anxiety
Wedding countdown: 8 months, 20 days
I have yet to try on a dress. The problem is that I wanted to lose some weight before then, but I can't keep putting it off. After all, in terms of alteration, it's easier to take in than add.
I'm finding that it is easier now to entertain myself with the help of the television, although KTVU did royally screw us yesterday and I was only able to see 4 of the 12 finalists. I wonder what tonight's result show will bring...that is if we are fortunate to watch it.
Wedding countdown: 8 months, 20 days
I have yet to try on a dress. The problem is that I wanted to lose some weight before then, but I can't keep putting it off. After all, in terms of alteration, it's easier to take in than add.
I'm finding that it is easier now to entertain myself with the help of the television, although KTVU did royally screw us yesterday and I was only able to see 4 of the 12 finalists. I wonder what tonight's result show will bring...that is if we are fortunate to watch it.
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
carpal tunnel
Maybe I'm spending too much time in front of the computer. I think that my eyes are going bad from looking at the computer all day, but the ironic thing is that I do have glasses specifically for extended periods of time where I am reading or on the computer. Unfortunately for me, I lost those glasses when I was working a KK in San Jose.
Does anyone know what carpal tunnel syndrome feels like? Just a thought. I'm afraid of getting it, although I wouldn't be too surprised if I did given the nature of my work for the past year.
We're on our way to planning this shindig we refer to as "the wedding." We got the church, reception site, flowers and DJ. We still need to book a photographer/videographer and day-of coordinator. There's a bridal fair this weekend that Byron will be attending with me (yay!), so hopefully there are some good vendors there and cake samples (yum!). I've been thinking about DIY centerpieces, favors and invites...good thing I got my bitches (aka bridal party) to help. It'll be like a mini-sweat shop. Not that I support those kind of things.
Maybe I'm spending too much time in front of the computer. I think that my eyes are going bad from looking at the computer all day, but the ironic thing is that I do have glasses specifically for extended periods of time where I am reading or on the computer. Unfortunately for me, I lost those glasses when I was working a KK in San Jose.
Does anyone know what carpal tunnel syndrome feels like? Just a thought. I'm afraid of getting it, although I wouldn't be too surprised if I did given the nature of my work for the past year.
We're on our way to planning this shindig we refer to as "the wedding." We got the church, reception site, flowers and DJ. We still need to book a photographer/videographer and day-of coordinator. There's a bridal fair this weekend that Byron will be attending with me (yay!), so hopefully there are some good vendors there and cake samples (yum!). I've been thinking about DIY centerpieces, favors and invites...good thing I got my bitches (aka bridal party) to help. It'll be like a mini-sweat shop. Not that I support those kind of things.
Friday, March 11, 2005
2 more hours...
...and 20 mintues until I consider it the weekend officially. I don't know wh, but I have a very difficult time staying awake after lunch. I don't know if it's because I just ate lunch or what. It's freezing cold in this office and I don't know why. I'm still debating on whether I should go home and get a jacket for my "date" later. Argh...I just want to go in my car and take a nap!
This blog has become a forum to ramble and not make any kind of sense at all. I attribute it to the fact that my days have become somewhat predictable and that I'm just not 21 anymore. I feel like there are more important things like paying bills, putting food on the table and keeping a roof over our heads, than my current emotional state or how I feel about a certain type of person.
I'm still going to write, but it just might not be as interesting as it was before (if it was interesting at all)...unless I write about wedding stuff...
...and 20 mintues until I consider it the weekend officially. I don't know wh, but I have a very difficult time staying awake after lunch. I don't know if it's because I just ate lunch or what. It's freezing cold in this office and I don't know why. I'm still debating on whether I should go home and get a jacket for my "date" later. Argh...I just want to go in my car and take a nap!
This blog has become a forum to ramble and not make any kind of sense at all. I attribute it to the fact that my days have become somewhat predictable and that I'm just not 21 anymore. I feel like there are more important things like paying bills, putting food on the table and keeping a roof over our heads, than my current emotional state or how I feel about a certain type of person.
I'm still going to write, but it just might not be as interesting as it was before (if it was interesting at all)...unless I write about wedding stuff...
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
long day
I'm here at work still. I gotta stay for a training class from 6-9pm. It's cool because I'm learning a lot and I won't have a bunch of traffic on the way home. It sucks because I've been here since 9a. I'm debating on whether I should take a nap in my car or go out for a walk and possibly get some coffee. Hmm...decisions, decisions.
I am happier now that I know that I'm not working claims or weekends anymore. The commute is doable, an hour and a half is really not that bad. It's just that lately I've been super tired and I think it may be from the fact that I was sick all last week.
Or at least...that's what I think it is :)
I'm here at work still. I gotta stay for a training class from 6-9pm. It's cool because I'm learning a lot and I won't have a bunch of traffic on the way home. It sucks because I've been here since 9a. I'm debating on whether I should take a nap in my car or go out for a walk and possibly get some coffee. Hmm...decisions, decisions.
I am happier now that I know that I'm not working claims or weekends anymore. The commute is doable, an hour and a half is really not that bad. It's just that lately I've been super tired and I think it may be from the fact that I was sick all last week.
Or at least...that's what I think it is :)
Thursday, March 03, 2005
stupid bladder
I've been bedridden for the past week and consequently, this is my last week at work. I've been there for 4 hours this week. How pathetic is that? I thought...man, it would have been nice to have a couple days off before I start my new job...but not like this. I've had a fever for the past couple of days and went to the ER yesterday to find out that I have a UTI.
I'm worried because I think that my health insurance ended and I may have to pay a shitload of money because of it. Byron has been so good to me he brings me whatever I ask him to and he's just been the best. I'm tired of being sick...arrgh!
I've been bedridden for the past week and consequently, this is my last week at work. I've been there for 4 hours this week. How pathetic is that? I thought...man, it would have been nice to have a couple days off before I start my new job...but not like this. I've had a fever for the past couple of days and went to the ER yesterday to find out that I have a UTI.
I'm worried because I think that my health insurance ended and I may have to pay a shitload of money because of it. Byron has been so good to me he brings me whatever I ask him to and he's just been the best. I'm tired of being sick...arrgh!
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
drawing the line
PROS:
Learning about training/marketing
Opportunity to become an agent within a few years
Small office setting
Learning how to run my own business to eventually own my own business
Daily interaction with agents, not crazy customers and the people they get into accidents with
No more claims!
Financial growth potential based on my performance
New challenge
CONS:
First 3 months will be a huge pay cut
No health benefits
Uncertainty
Don't feel like I have much support from Byron
PROS:
Learning about training/marketing
Opportunity to become an agent within a few years
Small office setting
Learning how to run my own business to eventually own my own business
Daily interaction with agents, not crazy customers and the people they get into accidents with
No more claims!
Financial growth potential based on my performance
New challenge
CONS:
First 3 months will be a huge pay cut
No health benefits
Uncertainty
Don't feel like I have much support from Byron
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
Monday, February 07, 2005
jury duty
I'll be damned...I gotta haul ass to Oakland tomorrow for some jury duty. Yeah boy, I have hella shit I left at work. Dang. This kinda sucks, but it's okay 'cuz I could give 2 flying fucks about work right now. I never seem to be happy with what I do for a living and for some reason I pick like the most stressful jobs.
I got tired of using Byron as a telephone to communicate with my future mother-in-law, so I just asked her straight up who she knew and what she was suggesting for a reception site. I don't know if was a good idea on my part, since I really don't want to give up any kind of control for my wedding...but hey, if she's got the hook up somewhere, then we need to take advantage...
I'll be damned...I gotta haul ass to Oakland tomorrow for some jury duty. Yeah boy, I have hella shit I left at work. Dang. This kinda sucks, but it's okay 'cuz I could give 2 flying fucks about work right now. I never seem to be happy with what I do for a living and for some reason I pick like the most stressful jobs.
I got tired of using Byron as a telephone to communicate with my future mother-in-law, so I just asked her straight up who she knew and what she was suggesting for a reception site. I don't know if was a good idea on my part, since I really don't want to give up any kind of control for my wedding...but hey, if she's got the hook up somewhere, then we need to take advantage...
Monday, January 31, 2005
Thursday, January 27, 2005
alive and kicking
Still here, still engaged and still living...meeting with the priest today to set an official date for the wedding then planning will be in full effect. I've learned that no matter what I do or say...money will always be an issue and there will never be enough, so I'm just gonna suck it up and be a man about it. Let me know how y'alls is doing...
Still here, still engaged and still living...meeting with the priest today to set an official date for the wedding then planning will be in full effect. I've learned that no matter what I do or say...money will always be an issue and there will never be enough, so I'm just gonna suck it up and be a man about it. Let me know how y'alls is doing...
Friday, December 31, 2004
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
happy fucking holidays
Well, it's been a LONG time since I written in here and many things have happened over the past couple of weeks.
Remember the car that I mentioned in previous posts? IT WAS STOLEN FROM OUR DRIVEWAY...right in front of our garage. Ain't that some shit. But no worries...the Modesto PD found it and it wasn't really damaged. We should be getting it back in a week as it is at the shop...but who's gonna give our sense of security back?
Taryn turned FIVE on Monday. It's official...she's a kid now. I looked at Royce and his head is starting to become more proportioned to his body. Why won't you kids stop growing!
I am now finacially independent of my parents...I paid off the rest of my car, I have my own insurance...it was liberating and disheartening at the same time.
Have a safe holiday season everyone...I hope I get to see all of you soon. I'm only a phone call away...and if you have AT&T or Cingular, we can talk for free. Word.
Well, it's been a LONG time since I written in here and many things have happened over the past couple of weeks.
Remember the car that I mentioned in previous posts? IT WAS STOLEN FROM OUR DRIVEWAY...right in front of our garage. Ain't that some shit. But no worries...the Modesto PD found it and it wasn't really damaged. We should be getting it back in a week as it is at the shop...but who's gonna give our sense of security back?
Taryn turned FIVE on Monday. It's official...she's a kid now. I looked at Royce and his head is starting to become more proportioned to his body. Why won't you kids stop growing!
I am now finacially independent of my parents...I paid off the rest of my car, I have my own insurance...it was liberating and disheartening at the same time.
Have a safe holiday season everyone...I hope I get to see all of you soon. I'm only a phone call away...and if you have AT&T or Cingular, we can talk for free. Word.
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
Monday, November 15, 2004
well adjusted
Eating popcorn and watching FRIENDS in our 5 bedroom, 3 bathroom home made me realized that I am now...an adult. I walked in from the garage to emptiness, but not the kind of emptiness I've been dreading for the past couple of months, but a comfortable kind. Like when you're sitting with a close friend and just enjoying their company...that kind of comfort. I've bitched and complained that I have nothing to look forward to...but I do. I don't take myself too seriously at work (just enough to actually keep my job...I do have shit to pay for now) and in turn I have this new found appreciation for life. I had Taryn and Royce for the weekend...they were a handful! But not to the point where I don't want kids anymore because I do...it's just that I'm okay with waiting for the "right" time. I'm in such a rush to do things that I don't really take the time out to just enjoy everything...especially myself :)
Eating popcorn and watching FRIENDS in our 5 bedroom, 3 bathroom home made me realized that I am now...an adult. I walked in from the garage to emptiness, but not the kind of emptiness I've been dreading for the past couple of months, but a comfortable kind. Like when you're sitting with a close friend and just enjoying their company...that kind of comfort. I've bitched and complained that I have nothing to look forward to...but I do. I don't take myself too seriously at work (just enough to actually keep my job...I do have shit to pay for now) and in turn I have this new found appreciation for life. I had Taryn and Royce for the weekend...they were a handful! But not to the point where I don't want kids anymore because I do...it's just that I'm okay with waiting for the "right" time. I'm in such a rush to do things that I don't really take the time out to just enjoy everything...especially myself :)
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
I think it's funny that there are people out in the wonderful land of blogging who get offended when something is posted that really pisses them off. In response, they go off on their own online journal and talk shit. Then, after that, they get mad because other people are up in their business when what started this whole thing is them getting in other people's business.
Strange world I tell you. But, as the saying goes...people who live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones...
Strange world I tell you. But, as the saying goes...people who live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones...
Sunday, November 07, 2004
Thursday, October 28, 2004
I have about an hour or so before Byron gets home and we can go to Wal Mart to get some stuff for our Halloween costumes. What are we going to be? Freeways. I even talked my unit at work to come dressed like that tomorrow too...I'm super excited, which just shows how much of a loser I've become.
My friend and fellow Gaucho Alum Jason recently joined the Allstate family. I'm happy because FINALLY I get to be around someone I hung out with in college. Good times, good times.
We now have access to our equity line...and I've paid off both of my credit cards and will soon be paying off my car. I feel like this huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. What's next? I think you guys can guess...
random thought: sexual harrassment is for ugly people.
My friend and fellow Gaucho Alum Jason recently joined the Allstate family. I'm happy because FINALLY I get to be around someone I hung out with in college. Good times, good times.
We now have access to our equity line...and I've paid off both of my credit cards and will soon be paying off my car. I feel like this huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. What's next? I think you guys can guess...
random thought: sexual harrassment is for ugly people.
Monday, October 18, 2004
I went to SB this weekend...and as always, it was fucking good ass times.
And then I found myself crying on my couch last night, holding onto Byron for dear life.
Fun times, sure...but at what cost?
Unlike me, Byron will never experience this. It's like re-living a period in your life when you know that you were truly happy. When everyone you loved was within a 1 mile radius from you, when you laughed so hard that your stomach muscles actually cramped, when you always knew the right thing to say and even when you didn't, people believed you anway...
Not that being here with Byron or living on my own sucks or anything, but it's just a different kind of happiness. It sucks when you know that you have to close that chapter in your life and move on to bigger and better things. But for some people, it's there and accessible...you experience different things and you experience them together. I'm not that fortunate. I depend on blogs to update me on people that I used to see everyday. I see them for one weekend a year and on special occassions. How do you keep the people who meant so much for 4 years close to you like you never left?
Lately, I've been feeling really lonely. It doesn't help that I'm even further away from my family. I just want to know that this will get easier...
And then I found myself crying on my couch last night, holding onto Byron for dear life.
Fun times, sure...but at what cost?
Unlike me, Byron will never experience this. It's like re-living a period in your life when you know that you were truly happy. When everyone you loved was within a 1 mile radius from you, when you laughed so hard that your stomach muscles actually cramped, when you always knew the right thing to say and even when you didn't, people believed you anway...
Not that being here with Byron or living on my own sucks or anything, but it's just a different kind of happiness. It sucks when you know that you have to close that chapter in your life and move on to bigger and better things. But for some people, it's there and accessible...you experience different things and you experience them together. I'm not that fortunate. I depend on blogs to update me on people that I used to see everyday. I see them for one weekend a year and on special occassions. How do you keep the people who meant so much for 4 years close to you like you never left?
Lately, I've been feeling really lonely. It doesn't help that I'm even further away from my family. I just want to know that this will get easier...
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
I can't fucking believe that it's October already...I'm still living in June!
The weather is getting colder and it's gonna start to rain soon...and that means it's going to be buys at work. I swear...if I've learned ANYTHING over the past 4 months at my job, I've learned that PEOPLE CAN'T FUCKING DRIVE. Geez...how the hell did you get your license people? Ugh...and the people who drive the expensive cars are big time turds too. They hella swear the world revolves around them. The last time I checked the world revolves around the sun and I'm pretty sure that the sun doesn't own a car or have a license for that matter.
Byron and I are getting fat and every so often, his parents are not afraid to point it out. I think back to when I was still in college and how I lost a lot of weight the summer before senior year. It was easy because I hardly ate (you need money to do that!) and I was single. I had a reason to look good...and now that I've landed me a man for the rest of my life...my appearance just isn't as important. But, we're trying...I've been bad and stopped going to the gym. I need to get my motivation to go back again...maybe next week. I need to be more hardcore about this weight loss thing. I know that the holidays are just around the corner...so I gotta do SOMETHING. It would help if my roomie would portion his food too. But I've noticed that I don't snack during the day. I should stop drinking soda and eating candy...ugh, I need to find a new comfort.
This is a rambling post. It's Tuesday night and Byron won't be home for another 4 hours. I get bored easily. I hope I don't snack to pass the time. I've been really tired lately and moody. Maybe I'm pregnant...ha.
The weather is getting colder and it's gonna start to rain soon...and that means it's going to be buys at work. I swear...if I've learned ANYTHING over the past 4 months at my job, I've learned that PEOPLE CAN'T FUCKING DRIVE. Geez...how the hell did you get your license people? Ugh...and the people who drive the expensive cars are big time turds too. They hella swear the world revolves around them. The last time I checked the world revolves around the sun and I'm pretty sure that the sun doesn't own a car or have a license for that matter.
Byron and I are getting fat and every so often, his parents are not afraid to point it out. I think back to when I was still in college and how I lost a lot of weight the summer before senior year. It was easy because I hardly ate (you need money to do that!) and I was single. I had a reason to look good...and now that I've landed me a man for the rest of my life...my appearance just isn't as important. But, we're trying...I've been bad and stopped going to the gym. I need to get my motivation to go back again...maybe next week. I need to be more hardcore about this weight loss thing. I know that the holidays are just around the corner...so I gotta do SOMETHING. It would help if my roomie would portion his food too. But I've noticed that I don't snack during the day. I should stop drinking soda and eating candy...ugh, I need to find a new comfort.
This is a rambling post. It's Tuesday night and Byron won't be home for another 4 hours. I get bored easily. I hope I don't snack to pass the time. I've been really tired lately and moody. Maybe I'm pregnant...ha.
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